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2 Jan 2011

2011-01-01T08:58:00.000-08:00

Hey is has been a long time since i update my blog and wish you all a happy new year!!!. Plus i bet nobody read at all so i seldom update. Recently i've been so busy and recently i've made new friends at my working place. Although i may appear to be crazy but is alright to be crazy cause as long as everybody is happy i'm ok with it but don't be too over it can already.

Well we have lots of fun although work is tiring. Recently i have my own blogshop and i ask my friend to be part of it cause i need help in alot of things. But then in somethings i have nothing to talk about it. I really don't know how to put.

Eh talking about love relationship things... I don't know what to say but then all i can do is support my friends who are in this stage. About me? I don't know haha~ but i hope he will appear soon so that i can love him. =]

Studies?? Temp my plan has been ruined again.... Weirdest thing is why when ever i made up my mind something will stop me to do it?? Well I wish i can know the answer why....

Friends. I wish i can make more new friends and i wish those friends i've just make we won't stop contacting and hope can can have fun and lots of things as usual how it is right now.

For those who are studying here's me wishing you all good luck in your studies and best in the future!! =]

8 July 2010

2010-07-08T03:39:00.000-07:00

I was kind of feeling freaking untoleratable. You know why?? I guess everybody don't like being copied by others right?? Whatever you write , or quotations or others that person will keep copying you what ever you do. That was what happen to me as this friend of mine what ever i do she also copy and i've been tolerating since that time she copy.

I kind of can't control any more and that's why yesterday i tell her off and she still think she's right?? She say she didn't copy me but she didn't think about it although she say she's not copying but in other people views she is copying as in is almost the same!! I really can't stand it!!! Can't you have your own idea's instead of copying other people??

Plus another thing is that she go post it in her facebook damn brainless thing is that she thought she put he/she or what then she ask is emo-ing and Emo-gerl the same?? Then she thought people are that stupid that she think people won't notice my profile name?? Then i told her off and say till something she say that don't believe me then fuck off!!! What the freak??! I didn't mention the word she go mention it!!!

Then is like she still think that although she didn't put my name ho xin yu is still that obvious my profile name is Emogerlz xin yu lorz!!! She also say do your own way and do my own way. If you have your ability to do your own way then don't copy people!! If don't have then just shut your mouth and admit you did copy people ok??!!

Is like how people type you also copy. Quotations also copy!! Still got the cheek to post in your facebook!! Talk to you my original way complain now talk to you nicely also complain what the hell you want from me??!! I'm not your bf neither your gf!! So what for got to please you till you are satisfied?? Even though yes my dear or who ever also won't be like you so hard to please!!

In your post description put what "ii think we shld nd to take a break afterall ... cause we always see each other like no meaningful le...am i right?? If you think like this then anything is up to you. I treat you as my best buddy and true friend only. I find that since there's no trust as you already say you don't know whether am i your true friend a not then i really have nothing to say.

A true friend will help you correct you and being straight forward. If you can't accept then no point telling you. Actually i have no intention to tell you all that because i know you will deny and others. I already tell you i don't like people to copy me neither other people like people to copy them. You go and think about it that if i copy you will you like it?? I bet no lorz. If you think you're still right then go ahead no point stopping you and telling you. But one thing i can tell you which is you only make people don't like you and irritate people.

7 July 2010

2010-07-06T21:46:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i went out with my dear and i was very happy because we seldom meet due to her busy projects hahaha~ :] but then before we meet i kind of don't know why i feel abit sad as in emotional... and when i meet her i still can't smile and i didn't know she can tell that i'm abit emo....

Until we went shopping and chat along also i tell her , then she say that i know arhz. So i ask her how you know? So she say i put in a relationship with you if i don't know i die already. LOL. So in my heart was saying she's damn great is like i really don't know when she using facebook all that... is like playing peek a boo or hide and seek or mia? haha xD

We went to cotton on and other shop to walk walk and buy her new clothes. She bought a jacket from cotton on and a long pants from this fashion. She bought a passport holder from pasar malam and she bought me a note book and mua ji as well from fair price. :] Thanks alot dear!! ^^
She also bought a hamster snack for her pet hamster ji ji.

Then when around 7pm we went to walk at amk hub and she was deciding and ask me want to watch movie? So she also ask me do i have enough money then i say i only got $6 :[ so she ask me which one i prefer? Movie or eat toast box? :] So i say anything then she decide for me or we don't watch movie we eat toast box? So i say ok and then we have our dinner at toast box hehe :D she eat 2 bread i eat a set meal to make myself full.

During dinner we chat and eat along and we were both sharing about our problems with each other. She was troubling about love problems and as for me mostly is family problems. She and i really very happy that when we are together. Yesterday she ask me a problem which i don't know how to answer which is do i take the relationship seriously?

I don't know how to answer and i say wa you ask this question very hard to answer lehz :] But i do take it seriously... I don't play with our relationship. Hmm then after dinner we walk back to her house there from amk hub. It takes 2 hours and we chat along while we walk back. I really enjoy the day :] She say she will be busy for this 5 weeks after that ok le but she still will message me. Saturday she can call me while she was working. :]

I really enjoy the day when we are together and she is the only person who have the same thinking as me and the amazing thing is that we get to get along so well which we only know each other last year decemeber. o.o amazing right? haha i really thank my mother that time bring me go there and that's how we know each other and i also thank the god for bringing us our fate. ^^

And we also take some photos yesterday at toast box and near her house bus stop. :] She accompany me to wait for the bus and then we manage to take some hehe :D I love you my dear!!! :D You are the only person who never feel bored when i share my problems.

30 June 2010

2010-06-30T00:58:00.000-07:00

Today i just mention something hurtful to bing han cause few days ago suddenly he mention that when i confess to him that time he did consider to be my bf. But then when i say why suddenly tell me all this? Then we say alot of things but now he only got feelings for vera. I ask him but right now you don't have those feelings for me right?

So he say feelings sure have but i still love you as a friend afterall i love you before.... So i was like keep saying him and today he came to my house to have lunch which he request me to cook for him. Then is like when we were playing cards that time i ask him this " do you dare to tell me in front of me about the things that you mention that day? " So he say don't know.... with smiling face.

So i was like i say ok never mind i know the answer already. So i say actually is also good that we are not couples as in not together. So he ask huh why lehz? So i explain firstly because people might thought that we are siblings. Secondly you are not mature enough... actually this are not the reasons in my heart.

The real answer is because he currently love vera and what for i got to go back to the past? Secondly i don't know what is he thinking. Yes maybe currently he love me if we were together but who know's in his heart he will admire another girl? Just like that time he likes xinyi then without knowing it he fall in love with me just because i'm nice to him.

Well right now i don't know what i want but i only know i need to work. Then take things naturally. Actually the impression he gave people is a playboy?

I'm sorry bing han.. I know that although that time we both like each other before and you also quite confuse that you didn't tell me then although even without knowing vera right now we will be couples but then i guess no cause i don't know what are you thinking. Plus right now i wish to take things naturally although i'm quite mad about it that you didn't mention anything until that day.

I wish you will be together with vera wish the 2 of you can be couples. Although everything is late but we still can be friends just like as you say you now still love me as a friend. :] And i didn't really know i can say that face to face omg!! Sorry for being that straight forward. We are still best friends.

Ho Xin Yu!! Congrats to you for being that brave enough!! Wahahah~~ xD Hooray! I'm free again i hope if there's another love challenge i can face it and cope it like today!!! :]

17 June 2010

2010-06-18T00:28:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i went out and meet Jane because i ask her to accompany me to the library. Well is because yesterday marilyn told me that she went to the library to help her sister to return the book. Then suddenly she ask me for my IC number. So i message her what for?? So she reply because i want to check clearly by myself. So i was thinking she don't trust me so i didn't reply. Suddenly she call me so she ask me you got my saw my message?

Can send me your IC number? So i said for what?? I thought i already calculate for you and i did remember i did calculate for you. So she not happy with angry sound she said ok lorz suan!!! Means forget it. So i hack care because i don't think that i got do anything wrong and there's nothing wrong that i didn't give anybody my IC number. I ask even if is you , you also won't anyhow give other people your IC number right?

Even though is friends also shouldn't give. So after we reach the library we ask the librarian whether can pay seperately and do they accept cash? So they said no they only accept nets and can't pay seperately. So i must wait for madeleine to pay me then i can pay off. So we went to AMK Hub and eat ice cream and ask about the contract for student plan.

After that we went to her father's Rojak stall and have rojak. Then after that i went to meet marilyn. I went and use computer and i got my audi couple. Then she keep asking me to sit beside her but i don't want because the keyboard that i use is comfortable and that's the reason why i don't want to change sits. Then i keep chatting with my cousin and my audi couple.

So after we use finish the computer we went to toilet is like she keep shoing those faces. Then she open the door it bangs. I was like feel like saying her. That time she say can i don't show her the face what about her?? Is always like this. Then after going to the toilet we went to my house downstair the coffee shop to have my dinner.

After finish having my dinner we went to my house downstair and we chat a little bit. I received my mother's message such a baberian!!! I didn't feel the vibration how you expect me to listen?? When i reach home she already lock the door. Then i message my father i told him the door is lock and he called home. My mother pick up and open the door. Then she started to scold me and beat me and i really can't tolerate any more.

So i talk back and i said you pinch enough already anot?! She say not enough lehz! So i push her away as she continues to beat me and pinch me. Then when i said something or what else i can't remember what i said and she slap me!! I said what else you know besides nagging , scolding and beating?! Who will want to go home if they always get nagged , scolded , beating?!! I'm already 20 years old you don't want face i want face arhz!!!

Suddenly my father come back he ask what happen? Then my mother keep quiet. My heart was saying what? You got the guts to keep saying me and beating me tell him what happen lahz! Scared arhz?! Then she continue to stare at me and my father say go and wash your face i will recommend job for you work for my friends.

But i don't know is't true a not is because none of it came true what he say. I really hate it! I said my mother i keep quiet doesn'e mean i agree with it ok and that doesn't mean you can take advantage of me ok!! I will talk back because i already tolerate for so long!! You misunderstand me i also didn't say anything i also keep quiet!! Still always think you are right.

I am really wondering am i her daughter a not! Although i am not good in studies and work at least i am good in something else. If you don't know my difficulties might as well shut up! She said who don't have difficulties? My heart was saying got the abilities don't copy what i say lahz.
I really don't know how long i can tolerate.

Guys , if you all can't find me in my house that means i've already been chase out by some barberian. She always wanted to. When i got my money i will rent a room with my friend or maybe move out and see who can accept me. Hopefully i wish some body can let me stay....or else i really need to rent a room outside.

8 June 2010

2010-06-08T07:45:00.000-07:00

Feeling so fucking untolerateable!!!I just can't stand somebody's fuckng attitude!!! In front of other people act like very innocent then at home like shit like that!!! Keep asking me to find a job so irritating!! I remember on the last saturday i went baack late around 12 plus cause she keep calling me to go back early so i choose not to.

My character is the more you can't wait the more i will delay!! My character is stubborn and she think she understands me well like that. So what if you are my mother?? You think you are my mother you can anyhow use your authority?? You only make people hate you more!! When she tried to beat me i hold her both hands and she scolded me and want to beat me again.

She scold me Ta Ma De and she said " Even mother you also dare to hit." Since when did i hit you?? Don't any how accuse people ok!! I'm only defending myself if not what?? Let you hit me for nothing is't??! I will become like this suddenly explode is because i have bear and tolerate you very long and you still think you are right.

Always say people why don't you reflect on yourself??? Money face!!! Everything in your mind is about money!!! Besides money you got think of family love a not?? You didn't manage to give i keep quiet i didn't blame you is good enough already ok!! If is other people's children already say you back till you can cry ok!!! Go to the temple for what?? Ask people to change what about you??!! Prove to person first lahz!! If can't prove then keep your mouth shut first ok!!

I know i'm useless and i did blame myself for that but you don't have to put another heavy stone on my head to give me so much pressure right?!! Now my life is totally worst than last time you are much more worst than him!!! Control , pinch , scold , shout!!! Hate it!!! I really HATE IT!!!!

If you really choose to chase me out , if i got the money or capability if i did move out don't ask me to come back!!! Your words offend people you also don't know!! People only choose to keep quiet you take it for advantage!!! I shout back then you say i change. have you ever why i became like this??!! Is because of you!!

You ask me a question : Friends are good and important right?? Then ask them to pay your hp bills! My bills did you help me pay?? If no then shut up!!! Did you ever make me happy just like my friends did?? If no then shut up!!!!!!! At least they are better they can make me happy!!! Not like you only make me cry!!!! Even sister also will cry because of you!!!

You say you raise us up but end up what??!! Treat you like this. Have you ever reflect on yourself??!! You only know how to say people. You teach me before that no matter how good you treat people don't ask for return. In the end?? You didn't prove it to me!! Only want peoplr to treat you good. If you want people to treat you good prove to other people that you will trea other people good first ok!!!!

8 June 2010

2010-06-08T07:02:00.000-07:00

Today is his birthday which is the guy which i've admired quite long... I bet he is celebrating his birthday with his girlfriend now.... How i wish if is possible i want to give him a unforgettable birthday but then without me maybe is better cause i can't give him anything.. And his heart belongs to somebody now...

Well although i'm appearing to be tough but when the limit is up you can no longer hold on anymore and that means is time to take off the mask. I wonder in this world does miracles exist?? Maybe yes maybe not?. He is always that special to me and i do respect his decision.... Maybe you all might find me stupid but then if you really do love the person , you will not find me that i'm stupid.

Well my facebook wall what i've write , i can't believe she saw it and she ask am i referring to her? Well haha is better if she ask cause that is specially for her :] So i replied. Shall see what she reply back and i'm quite curious about it :] Miss her so much until i dream of her omg!! o.o" Haha then saturday she call me but i miss her call but then i call her back luckily she answer :]

That's because usually she didn't answer as because she is busy. Then that day last saturday we chat quite long. Miss you so much!!! >.<" Today was suppose to go KKH for my check up with Marilyn but in the end she say she got stomachache. But then in the end she go to lan shop. Dots lorz..... I hope can faster meet my dear cause i wanna pass her something.

I don't know she will like a not cause i pick this with Jane and picked very Xin Ku de. With sweat dripping some more :] I hope you will like it :]

30 May 2010

2010-05-30T07:48:00.000-07:00

Today went to JB with my mother and one of the senior as in praying. Then we went there to listen to those reasonable things. Like for example the god tell us why got those volcano all that coming. As in guys i ask you. Did you ever realise when ever a year increase there is always something happening??

Thats because human have do a lot of harmful things. We should save the earth like recycling and save electricity. if not the earth will become worst!!.. Today i manage to see buddhas teaching us a lot of meaningful things. I even saw budhha smiling for the first time as in near you and when ever the god pass by i feel nervous and happy.

At first i was unwilling to go cause i find it troublesome. Then i realise is totally different from singapores. Singapore not that strict but it gives me stress. But over there i find it relaxing but then is strict!!.. Need to tie hair some more!! But so far i manage to get along with one of the senior. She is really very different.

How to describe?? Well maybe i should say i treat her as my own mother like that cause she give me a feeling that i can chat with her like with those mother and daughter relationship just like the way how serene and her mother communicate. I really wish that what ever i can share with her she can be my listening ear.

Anyway she also know my father and mother. How i wish she can be my 2nd mother. :] Hmm the feeling is amazing. So far today although i'm tired , but is worht it to go there cause i love to see budhhas walking , talking alive!!! :]

28 May 2010

2010-05-28T08:01:00.001-07:00

Today is the day which i am suppose to meet somebody but end up we didn't. Well due to her busy stuffs. So just nice jane want to meet me to pass me something and my belated birthday present. When i reach her house , then we chat and she pass me the present. She ask me whether i wanna open it? So i open it.

Is a stitch cup and i totally love it!! She is the first person who give me a stitch cup. She is the 3rd person who give me a stitch present. 1st is marilyn 2nd is Chuan Kai give me a soft toy stitch. Thanks for you guys stitch present. Indeed true friends haha :D

Well then after i open the present we play my DS game and we play until quite exciting and is got strategy. While jane is playing i watch tv or i also watch her playing , when i'm playing she watch tv also look at me play at the same time. Then we went to block 133 to buy her mother's dinner.

After buying her mother's dinner , we went to icon buy a cup of instant noodle. We bought the mee siam noodle but then when we eat , is oily. So we didn't finish it. We throw away cause is too oily. Next jane call the agent as the agent ask her to call her to discuss about the case. Then we use earpiece because i listen quietly so that when she need's me to be her witness i also can help her.

So we listen to what the agent say , it appears to be the agent doesn't even wants to give jane a chance to speak how can it be called discuss?? It's suppose to be called force!! Then she say alot of things and she keep repeating the same thing. Might as well be a recorder.... Jane ask her a question until she can't say anything.

Jane ask her why their company is ask people sign then go for the interview? So she tell the agent there is no such thing as sign then go for interview! Other agencies company is let them go interview then sign the contract. Then that agent got nothing to say is like we keep laughing all the way. xD After speaking for a little longer , the agent suddenly hang up because her battery flat.

That agent keep assuming jane breach contract and she even say jane didn't explain the whole story to the mom that's why they say go for a case. Jane say she did and she got let them see everything and all the documents and suddenly she also say you want to go there together??? Then when the agent say when she free she go there together. Then jane suddenly say she don't want to waste her time.

Then i go back home. Use the computer.

27 May 2010

2010-05-26T21:57:00.000-07:00

Yo everybody!! Alright actually last week or maybe should say on the 23 May 2010 my eyes got sore and is because i ate one whole pack of peanuts thats why. Before i got sore eyes , i have fever , cough , sore throat. Ya quite a suffering week LOL!! So is counted as 23 May 2010 until now haven't recover.

Yesterday my mother bring me to see the chinese medical doctor and the doctor was totally amazing!! She just ask me a few questions and feel my pulse and she know already as in what is my problem!! Whatever she ask me about like as in she ask me whether am i always don't feel like doing things as in lazy , my hands and legs don't feel like moving , everyday want to sleep only? So i say yes.

She also ask me do i always feel blurry and is my skin always itchy? So i say yes. Then she said is because of your digesting is not good and i should quit and stop drinking cold water. OMG!! Quit drinking cold water is the worst!! Worst of all i temp can't eat fried food!! Should eat more vegetables and eat more fruits!!

OMG i wonder can i make it without cold water? Cold water is my favourite!!! No choice got to quit cold water in order to get better... Everyweek a day must go back there to check. My eye indeed get better already not that sore. I don't want it to burst!! Those people want it to burst but i don't want! I prefer listening to the doctor after all she is a doctor!

Tomorrow is the day i'm meeting serene again! Well i'm happy about it cause i don't get to meet her regulary. Some how i don't know how to describe although i'm happy to see her but tomorrow she want's to go escape theme park! I think i get phobia going there maybe because last time going with azlin and lalitha they all , they keep playing the machines at the same time.

As in one machine can play 3 times at the same time continuously! I'm really afraid i guess. So i ask dear " Huh serious arhz?" Then she replied "Not good mehz?" So i replied" you really like to play arhz?" But this time she didn't reply so i replied "Well i guess i know what's your answer , Ok then we shall go there. " So she replied" Ok time and place we confirm see you on friday!"

Maybe happy and scared at the same time is't a good thing :X Well is ok be brave xinyu!!! For her you got to be brave!! X[ Last few days when i'm meeting marilyn , i on my hp songs to listen. One of the song dear got sing to me before , well her singing is nice :D Then when i on that song , i close my eyes i still remember the way she sing to me and i smile.

That feeling is undescribelable and is some sort of comfort and concern that is totally different from other close friends of you. She is totally my mirror. Whatever i'm thinking of or what else she really understand from the start. :] We did got the same thoughts or what else lols! When she said this , this is totally funny and crazy! xD

She said "If you were a guy , or me if we were couple how great it is." Haha so funny :] I do agree with it too. Cause we do have the same point as in some of it. But most importantly we are best friends :D

9 May 2010

2010-05-09T00:24:00.000-07:00

Hi there! Well first of all i'm going to wish every mothers a HAPPY MOTHERS DAY because today is mothers day. :] Erm although today is mother's day but i'm not going to talk about it. I'm still going to talk how i feel about in my love life cause this blog is about how i feel in my heart.

Well im not going to say till that obvious cause i don't know whether they have my blog address. What i have written in my facebook is " I wish i can always be by your side and in whatever i can make you laugh. Is better that you won't or didn't choose me because i can't give you anything. Even though i'm sad i won't let you know is because i don't want anything to affect our relationship. I love you. There's nothing my heart can do cause i'm still stuck in the moments with you. "

Some words don't have till say till that obvious... I really love him that's all. If he is happy so do i although he have no feelings for me is more better cause i'm not good enough for him... All i can do is hide in my heart. When ever i saw him him i must hide a mask in front of him. I still remember one time i fall out with Jane and when i'm with him i receive a message from jane and i cried in front of him because the words are harsh and unbearable.

Then he saw me crying he ask me what happen? Don't tell me that there's sand in your eyes as in he scared i'm lying to him. So i say nothing. He say don't bluff i can tell there's something wrong. In the end i still cry can't hide from him anything. So he say follow me. In the end he treat me ice cream. Now that was funny as in he say i thought girls eat ice cream to make themself happy if or when they are sad.

So he ask me what's wrong and why i cry. So i tell him. Then he told me alot... and i he bought me a watch for my birthday present that was in the year 2008. I wonder will my friends in the skys help me get this come true? Even though is abit silly and is impossible and love can't be force. I really hope if there is a chance i will treasure it.

The feeling in my heart is feeling terrible , even though is terrible i won't let him know. But heaven is kind to everyone right? Hey come on ho xin yu wake up! Is really very silly and stupid!! Ok ok i know.....
There's nothing my heart can do..... im still stuck in the moments with you.

Now she's got everything that i have to live without... She is always the one by your side and not me. She's the one who can help you with your problems but not me. I'm always asking why am i just that useless to you? Even though i understanding the true meanings of love. I just can't help it , i just can't help it thinking and missing of you.

When i saw you holding her hand it totally breaks my heart. Got to see the happy moments with you and her right in front of my eyes. I can't do anything just stand aside and watch. Do you know and do you understand how am i feeling right now? Do you? This memories stores in my mind that clearly some more is right on my special day.

I don't know should i be happy or sad?.... You made me feel so complicated until i lost my way.... Don't know which way to go don't know where is my feeling...
My heart is feeling blue blue... very blue. Blue stands for sadness.....

28 April 2010

2010-04-28T02:33:00.000-07:00

Today i just heard of a friend patching back with her ex. I just feel so heart pain or what is because i really don't like the way she's been treated from that guy. I really have no right to interrupt or say anything yes i do agree. But , do you know whenever i heard about what happen to you i feel sad for you and heartbroken as a friend of course.

Is up to you whether you want to listen a not and i'm not forcing you to listen to me or what. But if you find that he can give you happiness then go ahead i won't stop you. I really hope he can treat you good and give you the best and whatever you want.

I always find that girls are always end up get hurt by guys. But some guys i won't say you are wrong cause some are the faults in girls for being childish. But when girls are mature guy's are childish i must say guys are in the wrong this time.

Why? Cause if you really have a girlfriend you should and must be loyal. Not by looking at other girls although they are prettier than your girlfriend or what. But why you are together with your girlfriend? That is because you find her special than other girls. So you should treasure instead of having other girlfriends or looking at other girls.

Guys , do you know what does it means by your girlfriend is unhappy when you say other girls is pretty? That proves that she love you and she is jealous but you are so stupid! Yet you still think you are right?! I mean that's ridiculous enough! Another one , you woo her but end up having together for not a year you mention break just because of another girl which you know her for not until 3 mths?!

I mean is like is always the best to know the guys well enough first about 1 year plus then you consider to be with him unless you really love him until like very crazy or what then go ahead to be with him although you don't know him well.

Next , i really dislike something about friends telling me this: I really have no words to say about him lorz and is like we break ler because i really can't stand him and we always quarrel just because of a small thing or he always talks about another girl in front of me or whatever..

Ok firstly i want to say is that yes , couples will always quarrel or argue over such small things. So what if you break? End up patch back right? Then got to say congrats for patching back and then? Next , break again? Come on man! This is really very funny and ridiculous. If you really decide and make up your mind ler please stay firm to prove to guys something.

We are not that weak as they think unless you really love them like crazy. But i can tell you some thing if you all continue like this you'll not stay long together cause basiclly you don't trust or communicate well. 2nd , the both of you only know each other for months. Why not just like see how it goes first whether he proves himself of what he says then consider to patch back again.

Next , miracles? Yes miracles do happen but not that always that accurate. Why do i say so? Cause is the matter of time got to wait damn long or maybe it won't come true also. I mean i'm sure you girls will be able to find someone better than your ex or current boyfriend. What for got to waste your time or cry over for such a guy who don't deserve for you to which he don't even treasure you?

I hope you girls understand what i mean.

26 April 2010

2010-04-26T03:09:00.001-07:00

Today went to ICA building cause i lost my IC that time then when my cousin tell me the date to rufund is already is expire but then i say maybe go there we see what they say lorz. Indeed expire le haiz can't redeem back my $100 sad man. Some more got to do a new IC for nothing freak man!

I'm wondering why can't i be more alert and not careless??! I really hate myself for being careless and not alert enough... Then never mind so just forget it. So we went to Orchard to walk walk and then is like today is raining heavily. Recently it just keeps raining and i bet all of you know this rain is acid rain so guys try your best not to get wet by this rain is it might let you have skin cancer.

When i look at the cloud the cloud pass by quite fast not as usual how it passes when is raining. When i saw the cloud , the cloud colour is also different as usual. Like got a little bit blue. Hmm the world is sick so we got to save the earth by saving electircity and eat less meat.

Today after shopping with yu lin when i reach home i feel abit headache and leg a little bit pain. So i rest awhile as in having a nap. Then got to cook for my mother and me for our dinner. Right now my head is still pain X[

Oh yes! By the way regarding to my facebook if you all don't know why i want to thank this people , i shall explain to you here. That's because during my tough days as in when i'm broke. Right now i'm still broke but then wednesday i'm going to meet a agent for being his personel assistant.

When i got back the money i will pay you guys back the money when i have enough :] Thanks to you guys that you all lend me money when i'm broke. Not only that , you all are the best and you guys are great! I really thank all of you for helping me along when i'm having my tough times.

Some friends got totally no words to say but i won't blame them is just that feel abit angry cause got one time i went out with a friend and then ask her for $1 to buy a drink as i am damn thirsty. Then she say don't have ok never mind. Suddenly she found $2 in her bag then she still won't lend me dots!!!

Next we watch movie then we bought pop corns and a drink we bought a set and then is like i foot the set which cost $6.80 then i say each of us foot half. So she act that she don't know. What? :] Half mahz she give me $0.40 wth lorz!! Then that means i got to foot $6.40??! That's damn unfair man i mean is like even $0.80 also don't or can't afford and you should feel embarassed enough that i foot $6 and you only foot 40cents but she won't!

Forget it don't feel like mentioning anymore. Then for other friends of mind i am really thankful to them also. I really want to thank everyone although is not thankful day haha :]

23 April 2010

2010-04-22T22:37:00.000-07:00

Today i wake up at 8.18a.m cause i meet my cousin for jogging near our house. Then i only jog 1 round cause i haven't been exercising or quite a long time. Until my cousin saw me sitting at the chair and guess what? I tell her i sit there is because my shoe spoilt haha xD So we went to sit awhile but i am feeling abit unwell because before we went for jogging i didn't eat and drink anything.

Then while on the way walking back to our house downstair while we were waiting for the traffic light i feel like vomitting. Then i feel dizzy also and i nearly faint after crossing the road!! I don't know what's going on i only feel dizzy then i ask when you feel like fainting how is the feeling? So she answer totally weak and want to collapse.

So i say ya so we sit down at our house downstair badminton court those exercising things. Then i tell her you don't mind a rest awhile as in sleep awhile right? So she said of course not! So i sleep awhile for 30 mins. Then is like when i was like feel like going to collapse soon she say your face look pale. So i say really? Cause i feel like fainting le.

Then after i sleep awhile then i feel better le. I think maybe is because i only have 5 hours of sleep?? I slept at 3am or 3am plus. Some more i didn't eat and drink anything. So we went back to her house she give me eat biscuits and is quite nice :D and drink a cup of cold water with ice.

She went to bathe and i continue eating and rest. After finish bathing and after i finish eating while waiting for her to be ready cause she need to accompany and go her grandma house. After she prepare finish we set off she accompany me to take the lift. Thanks alot arhz yulin :] luckily you were by my side if not i really going to faint at the grass there.. :X

REGARDING ABOUT YESTERDAY WORDS AT MY FACEBOOK PROFILE.

Yesterday i heard another of my friend mentioning about her relationship. I really feel damn angry about some guys which are one of them!! Is like your look didn't look good still have so much request and dare to have another gf after breaking 1 week? Don't you feel guilty at all?? Is like guys are after they get what they want after they find it old or tiring they just throw it aside!

They don't care about your feelings wth!! You guys think we girls are what? Hello!! We are also human beings you think we don't have feelings is't??! We can treat you the same way as you did to us but we didn't because we know it won't be good and is useless!! I believe you will have your own retribution regarding as treating us girls in this way!!

21st April 2010

2010-04-21T08:23:00.001-07:00

Woots~~!! Hey there everybody latest news about me is i'm gonna have a job soon by mothers recommendation about beings agent's PA yupp thats right! :] I don't know how easy or tough it would be but i'll be giving my best shot. As i need money right now and i'm planning to have futher studies.

Next year study ITE again... But different course. The course i'm interested in is Visual Communication. Then i need to aim and get 4 pointers in order to get in to Poly!! Die die must strive for it cause i find job that time is quite difficult cause i only got ITE cert which is not enough as right now many are hiring those degree and diploma certs people.

So i got to have a diploma cert. But then i don't wish to let relatives know cause im afraid many people ask me but end up not good get said again... So maybe just stay quiet first ya...
Secondly now i'm not feeling good as in got a little bit of cough and sore throat?? Quite pain and itchy at the throat there...

Eh regarding about future who knows?? But i'm planning to achieve what i'm aimming at right now. So all i need to do is buck up for my job first!!! Dahz!! My hearing got problem man how am i gonna do?? :[

17 April 2010

2010-04-16T09:40:00.000-07:00

Some how you know is like erm , recently the sad feeling is back again for no reason and i don't know why. I am wondering a lot of things as in will we be back again?? I have no confidence in it. Right now i totally have no feelings for guys any more due to because last time till now the guys i've admire break my heart until i feel nothing at all as in numb.

Omg i think my heart have become like ice cold hearted. Can't feel anything at all. When you want something that you always wanted but in the end you can't get the thing that you want you feel miserable and painful i'm referring to love relationships. I feel so heartbroken and is totally a heartbreaker. I don't wanna feel this way but some how i just can't change it.

Some guys have proven to me the things i've always think them in the good view but some how they prove me their view. I don't wanna hurt anymore , please give me a break. There is this guy who ask me to be his gf but i don't wanna , i don't want to be because i don't feel a single thing for you at all , not only you is most of the guys.

You might find i'm cruel but i actually i'm not. That's because i've get hurt by you guys too much that's why my heart has been numb and i can't feel anything at all. I'm sick and tired of this game that's why my msn nick put that : Love is gone , Now my heart for guys is totally locked. Totally locked.

How am i gonna unlocked my heart? A very good question , unless this guy i admired he can be able to unlocked my heart and let me feel touched. Just a little bit of touched and i'm unlocked. Can be able to lead happy day's with him can be able to have those blissful feelings which i don't have before.

Emogerlz you can't always be that emo forever cause if you continue like this , you won't be able to have any bf. " But i just can't help it.... "

13 April 2010

2010-04-13T05:06:00.000-07:00

My goodness tell you something. I've always thought that i have no feelings for him anymore but when today i saw his photo kissing his gf i feel abit sad and happy and i don't know why. I feel happy is because he finally found his partner and is stable so i am really happy about it.

Sad is because i regret i didn't tell him about my feelings but then is ok i rather suffer than he ignore me just like one of the guy i admire he treat me that cold blooded as like he don't know me.

Well is time to let go i did but then still will some how regret it. I really hope i won't feel this way anymore. But when ever i saw him it will makes me happy i can tell you i love you over here but not directly. Sometimes i also might wanna cry but i don't know why. Can anybody tell me why?? :[

13 April 2010

2010-04-13T04:24:00.000-07:00

Today while i'm using the computer then there's a guy which i know him from friendster but now i'm no longer using. We long time never contact as in chat on msn then just now he chat with me and it was like there's kinda gap between so is really hard to have conversation with him.

but he keep chatting with me so slowly i find it ok. Then he ask me whether i have a bf?? So i say break le so now i'm single and he says don't be sad. Find one lorz... So i say haha i won't lahz but then i prefer to take things natural le. Which mean's i'm not in a rush to have bf due to my heart is lock.

Then he was like wanna ask me out he say he treat me dinner or movie. Then he ask me out for movie. Then i ask chiew hoon to accompany me to go watch movie with him. Then he don't mind. So we will be meeting at amk hub.

Next i wanna say something which i really hate it! I mean was like wth i got the right don't feel like cooking so don't cook lahz. Wth never cook then never cook lahz what for show your bloody attitude face sia!!! Not happy don't make spoil of the remote control lahz don't bang here bang there! I don't cook not happy just say lahz don't have to say me and show me that face!

When you cook i always help you wash the woks. Then when i cook you got wash the woks anot??!! Don't think i'm the youngest then bully me ok?? What the freak all of you are always like this do finish then order me to help you all wash then when is me did i ask you all help me wash??!! Everytime you all see me do nothing then keep saying me just put it as a judgement when you see what i do! how about when i find job that time you all didn't see and even praise abit fucker!!!

Don't know anything just keep your mouth shut lahz!!! I REALLY HATE THIS TYPE OF PEOPLE!!!! WHAT I'M THINKING YOU KNOW THEN DON'T ANYHOW GUESS AND ONE MORE THING!!! DON'T JUST PUT IT AS A JUDGEMENT IF YOU SEE WHAT I DO!! IF YOU ARE A JUDGE YOU ARE NOT FIT TO BE ONE!!!! I'M REALLY VERY ANGRY WITH YOU ALL YOU ALL STILL THINK YOU ARE RIGHT!! I DIDN'T SAY I'M RIGHT OR WHAT IS JUST THAT BECAUSE YOU ALL ARE TOO MUCH!!!!

10 April 2010

2010-04-10T03:05:00.000-07:00

Today i went out with my cousin and her friends including her bf and Bing Han and Brandon also. We wait for everybody to arrive then we went for lunch. After havig our lunch , we went to meet Bing Han and Brandon. While we were having our lunch i didn't chat much with them cause i find it akward. Then until Cat talk to me and say why you so emo?? I thought at facebook you fierce?

So i say haha no lahz then yu ying help me explain is because we protect each other but until you realised her true face you she is not fierce only act fierce so i say hey... haha xD. So we all laugh and then we went to meet Bing Han and Brandon then we went to play pool at the usual place where we always play pool.

Starting i can't find my comfortable feeling then i keep losing. For the first round i play with one of her friend's stead. Then i keep losing as he is quite a good player. Then the girls keep asking me to play with him and jia you jia you :] Well then i play with brandon first two round he keep hitting black ball and i win but is not actual winning because he is damn good at pool!!!

Then BH ask me to play with him so as cat and after playing finish we went to level 2 vitualand. They play those dolls catching machine. Cat manage to catch 2 of the tigger one of them is pooh in costume in tigger.

Then i didn't manage to catch but i only play $10 then i went to lan to meet marilyn and we use comp. Well i'm feeling happy although i lose is because i really enjoy my day :] I hopee i can improve my english because i wanna write alot of meaningful sentences and then post in my fb so that people like them :]

7 April 2010

2010-04-07T04:06:00.000-07:00

Today just read facebook status and i was wondering should i thank this person or you know like angry about it?? I was like in a confused situation and honestly speaking i didn't meet you all because sunday i really don't feel well my stomach really not feeling well why you just can't understand?? And one more thing if i really don't want to meet you all i won't always go for the meetings right??

I agree about i'm a person who is carefree but i did ask the agent. That time she say she will call me in the end she didn't and i know what is the answer which is i don't get to have the job. So i did ask her in the end she say i didn't get to have the job but will recommend me other jobs and if shortlisted can go for interview.

My friend also working for those job agent she also helping me to find job. Nobody knows what i'm doing. Is like i keep quiet is i choose not to tell or say anything but can everybody please understand me??? I really don't want to quarrel or anything. I'm getting very tired of my own life nobody knows.

Family can't shut up already very irritating then i just hope no more problems coming to me but is impossible.... I know you all concern about me but please get the facts right before you all say anything.

6 April 2010

2010-04-06T08:51:00.000-07:00

Yoz!!! Today i went out with my dear but i can tell she is not happy as in she is sad due to her personal matters. Then i meet her at amk hub but i was late for 10mins. So she come and find me cause while she is waiting for me to reach she went to jubilee.

So i went to level 2 toilet and then she come and find me. After i come out from the toilet i saw her hahaha xD. Then we chat while walking and we went to buy movie tickets first. We bought how to train your dragon. Although i watch before but i don't mind watching again is because this movie is really nice :]

After the movie we went to walk around and have lunch. Finish eating we went to walk around again cause we were waiting for marilyn to arrive cause we are going to play pool after that. Finally she arrive and i introduce them by myself haha xD then at first they are shy and keep chatting to me lol ok but i like it hahaha~ xD

Then we reach the pool there and we started playing and the both of us teach my dear how to play pool. Although they don't know each other but they communicate quite well. They did chat but suddenly marilyn ask something that she shouldn't ask..... then actually dear want to come my house but end up never is because of a sudden change and i don't know the reason why.... i was wondering is't because of me?? Or marilyn???

But i can tell she is sad. And she went back home and i didn't send her off. Cause firstly i don't bear to say goodbye to her and i think she wants to be alone. Then marilyn started saying me " you this friend don't know how to be de lehz... don't know how to accompany her to the bus stop!! " So i said : not i don't want to but can't you tell from her face she want's to be alone??? And she is acting weird as in not the way she is usually....

Message to my dear : I know you are sad and you don't want to express it and hide it from me is because you don't want me to worry about you. But do you know that the more you hide it the more i'm worried?? I was wondering are you crying or what else? And i'm getting very very worried although i didn't send you off to the bus stop is because i think you want to be alone.....
I hope that you won't hide your feelings in your own bottle as it is not good for your health.

Actually i'm quite unwell today as in headache and is like body a little bit warm. I still insist to meet dear because we rarely can meet. When we were watching the movie i was quite feeling terrible but i got to act well as in act that i'm fine so i laugh cause the movie was a little bit comedy. Then in the pool while they were playing my headache is like worst a little bit. Neck also pain...... i didn't let her know cause maybe she will ask me go back home as that was the thing that i don't wish to happen... today i tell her the truth about i'm sad and disappointed as what i write in my facebook.

Then she also suspect whether i'm telling the truth so i tell her the truth i'm sad and disappointed is not only because of him. Also got abit for you as in our meeting although i know you are busy. So i tell her i tell you the truth and yesterday i lie is because i don't want our relationship to be different as in how it use to be that good from good to not good. So she say she understand and i ask her twice really?? :] Then she say ya :]

That's good and i like it. The point from the way she thinks and most of the time she understands :]

6 April 2010

2010-04-05T09:39:00.000-07:00

Erm ok.... first i would like to say sorry cause my dear chat to me..... and i didn't understand her feelings... dear i'm so sorry. The 1st tone i heard from her is she is fierce cause she broke up with him again. Then is liike i didn't understand her feelings and she ask me why i'm angry and sad. Actually i wanna tell her the truth but is not the time.

Then i just lie to her that is because of bryan. Then she keep asking me not to be sad. So i say haha this sentence should give you bahz. When i hear her voice i know she is unhappy as in sad and angry. So we chat about our meeting tomorrow first we watch movie then have lunch and then we go play pool then walk walk.

I was thinking of bringing her to my house and chit chat. When chat awhile on the phone then she went to bath le. So i called marilyn to chat with her. Then she say a lot of things like she shouldn't be this or that but then i'm a person will think twice before i act and i can hide my emotions for my important person. And marilyn also say we are lilke bf and gf.

My mother also thought we are les LOLS no lahz we are those very very close type as in don't know how to describe. But our destination our fate are almost the same. :] I do love my dear . I'm so sorry i shoould have understand your feelings. :]

5 April 2010

2010-04-05T06:15:00.000-07:00

Today went to lavender and meet chuan kai cause i ask him to accompany me to remake my ic although he was late haha xD but is ok cause he is always my saviour thanks alot arhz chuan kai! :] Then after finish making the ic we decide very long where to go and have our lunch. So i say mac at bugis.

He don't want to take train so we take train. So in the end we take bus 133 to there. We finally reach and he help me buy my set meal haha xD then after that i ask him to send me songs and we went to walk around awhile. So after finish walking we went to the toilet i nearly go to the gents!! And he keep sour me xP

I reach home use comp actually marilyn wanna come my house but in the end she go lan. Then i didn't cook cause i don't feel like to. After my sister reach home she give those type of attitude face. After reach home keep saying me. I was like never mind in and out.

So about tomorrow are we meeting?? I guess will be postpone again if i'm not wrong..... I can only hope it didn't. Erm according to that blog i wanna say is very sorry as in this blog i vent all my feelings here. Boring jane tell me that the agent call her and tell her she can start work on the 26 april. She hope i can get in if not she will be lonely haha xD

But won't de lahz cause one of your friend there mahz ;] ok so what i have prayed for has come true indeed. Hmm but i didn't really wish this way. Lalala~ pray for every of my BFF hope whatever they wish for will come true :]

4 April 2010

2010-04-04T07:06:00.000-07:00

Well today i'm really feeling disappointed and kinda sad. Well mostly is because first dear was supposed to meet me at 30th March in the end she say postpone is because her bf wanna meet her.... So i say oh ok lorz then we postpone to 1st or 2nd April instead. Then she say postpone to monday cause she got driving license test. So i say oh ok lorz....

And today i was supposed to go out with Jane and hongmeii but i not feeling well stomache not feeling well. So they say oh ok lorz. Hongmeii good ask me take care thanks alot mother ;] Erm then got chat abit. Then in the cab i received message from dear and she say " hey gal , my bf wants to meet me tomorrow we meet at tuesday can?" So when i received this message.....

The first feeling was sad and angry cause i dislike false alarm really..... i bet nobody also like false alarm... 1 time or twice is ok but third time i am really feeling disappointed.... Then i replied " Again? Haiz...." So i replied another message " See you on tuesday then... " Although i am angry and sad but i don't want to make it so obvious cause we might end up quarreling.

Then i was wondering is every girls always put their bf at the first place? Or some are like me friends first then bf?? Some more we already say set in the end..... in your heart im still nothing not worth...... as in although i'm just your friend but i can feel i'm not really that important to you....

Never mind. Ok i must understand one thing in your first place you bf is always important. But i got to postpone my appointments as in my other friends wanna meet me but i always put you at first place first do you know that?? I'm not saying anything or what. I will say this is because you are really important to me. Best close dear.

I am afraid i have not enough time to go out with you cause you need to study from mon to fri. I'm maybe getting this job do you know that? You got to work sat and sun. You can always meet him in school but we rarely meet... I'm really very sad.

I shouldn't say this. I'm sorry. If you saw this you can ignore cause i don't want you to see this. See you on tuesday 6th April.

30 March 2010

2010-03-30T02:32:00.000-07:00

Today i feel disappointed and happy at the same time. Today I was supposed to meet dear and she is supposed to meet me but in the end... we didn't meet. Cause i keep asking her what time are we meeting?? She didn't reply me and until 3pm she message me that time i was already eating my lunch.

Cause i thought if she haven't call me or message me i could go do my things first as in i go take my photo first for my IC. Then i go meet marilyn first and then we went to KOI Cafe to buy bubble tea. And while marilyn was waiting and ordering i am on the phone with the job agent cause tomorrow i am going for the interview.

I hope this time i can manage to work because i need the money urgently. I hope i can manage to work long. Well but then the place is at UBI and is so BIG!!!!! How to go? Only can take bus 25 then reach ubi take cab there. I hope marilyn father can fetch me there cause i don't know how to go.

Next back to the topic , i was disappointed because i thought this time i really can meet dear but in the end she is busy again. I thought i can watch movie with her or window shopping so that we can take photos but in the end no. Never mind is ok anyway i am outside with marilyn already...

Well then she say our meeting can postpone to thursday instead? So i say ok never mind anyway i now outside le. So she didn't reply. And then we went to S11 to eat carrot cake for our lunch. Marilyn order white for hers and mine is black and both got chilli.

Next after finishing we went to play billard and i keep losing!! That's because i keep hitting the black ball accidently. But i did manage to win some of it. Then the total cost was $13.80 ok the price was ok. Then we went to lan shop awhile and after that we are going back home. Well nothing to talk about it ler haha xD

29 March 2010

2010-03-29T00:38:00.000-07:00

Hello long time no update le. :] Yesterday Jane help me to change my blogskin really thank her a lot hehe :D Well i guess everything between the 2 of us shall become memories although he don't seems to care and take that serious.

Next i really want to say is i wish i can learn more english words like as in not that basic type. I wish is like a little bit difficult type de words. And then i think this time i am going to have a job soon i hope i can be clever and smart this time so that i won't get fired by those stupid boss!

Erm actually i'm wondering how i can be smarter abit?? Anybody have any ideas?? :/

On the saturday 27 March 2010 my elder cousins came to our house for dinner and i don't know why and what's the special occasion?? Well never mind after the dinner they keep chatting like how they use to be when they are together. So they also got chat with me abit. Hmm then is like ok ok cause like got a little bit of age gap thats why we didn't really chat much like how i chat with my cousins which are younger than me.

Among 90s de i am the first elders as in younger cousins. Then that day we really chat a lot and then they were discussing about where to go. Should they go KTV or where?? So they have decided to go United Square Xin Wangs Cafe. But the security guard told us that every shop closed already.

So they don't believe they go and check , indeed they close already and so they went to ask one of the workers whether still got other outlets open till late? So they say is Changi Airport Terminal 3. Then we went there it did open but... there were 10 of us and they don't have table for 10 of us so we went to Ya Kun but they say went to kopitiam.

Qi yan and hui geok ask me what do i want to eat? Then i answer them i have not decide what to eat yet. Then after i decided to eat fishball noodle soup bee taye mak. And we also ordered Ice Kachang. I share with Qi yan the Ice kachang.

After the supper they continue chatting and telling jokes. We laugh until everybody can hear us. I enjoy the jokes and i tell them 3 jokes haha xD So we went to toilet and then walk to the car park cause my sister husband fetch us back. Then we arrive home at 2am.

Back to today:

Well i'm really excited about tomorrow is because i'm meeting dear!!! We really miss each other and is like march time only meet 2 time sad man... I thought her holiday we can meet more often than that time but she is always that busy. And so yesterday we chat on the phone awhile. Then we decided to go Pasir Ris Park to cycle.

I am really exicited!! xD eh yesterday she thought i will MIA cause i am playing with clement Reversi and then she called me awhile to chat and then she heard me playing games with him haha xD Then she ask abit of him and they did chat but i am the messenger haha xD. So she say later then she call me in the end she is the one who MIA. So i say her now you are the one who MIA haha so she say oh no la.

Everytime i want to call you that time suddenly always got something for me to do thats why. So sorry about it so i say is ok anyway i already habit le haha and i also must continue to habit because i am scared if i keep relying on her in the end when i need her the most she is not there for me i will be feeling more struggling as in terrible.

See you Dear :]

1 March 2010

2010-03-01T05:05:00.001-08:00

Today after hearing this song call gan dong tian gan dong di i feel very touch and can describe my feelings for admiring those guys in the past like kk and this current....

Erm currently feel abit sad because he say temp don't announce our relationship as he say as of now we are not officially dating... i was like feel very sad about it but then this has occur my mine before whether should i mention this... : shall we break?

I know is quite stupid but then i really don't know how long can i wait as im very impatient type and is like im afraid the more i wait the more false alarm i get , in the end i'm the one who get hurt the most....

He said alot of things i don't know whether will it come true anot cause we didn't even hold hands before. But we shared the same food and drinks before... we take photos and lean on his shoulder before...i was wondering is this how a couple act as i mean looks like?

Today after hearing this song i really feel like crying and im wondering will he feel sad or what and alot more.....

I'M SO stupid......

21 February 2010

2010-02-20T19:00:00.000-08:00

Hey hey happy new year xD erm recently keep listening to simple plan song addicted cause of kk..... i mean what happen to him recently as his relationship with her.... well really feel sad for him. But then now im confused die ler cause this song makes me remind of him again haiz.

But the lyrics really suit my story between me and him... :

I heard you're doing ok
but i want you to know
i'm a dick
i'm addicted to you
i can't pretend i don't care
when you don't think about me
do you think i deserve this?

I try to make you happy but you left anyway

I tried and to forget
that im addicted to you
but i want it and i need it
i'm addicted to you
Now it's over
can't forget what you say
and i never wanna do this again
heartbreaker

Since the day i met you
and after all we've been through
i'm still a dick
i'm addicted to you
i think you know that is true
i'd run a thousand miles to get you
do you think i deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
i did all that i could
just to keep you
but you left anyway.....

how long will i be waiting?
until the end of times
i don't know why i'm still waiting
i can't make you mine

Heartbreaker.....

really don't what to describe..... but i already forget him but why whenever im at the nice situation always got something happen to make me get reminded of him? Is this a test to see how firm is my feelings? I think is a yes but then i really have no confidence in this test as you see i have feelings for him 2 years and finally manage to pull through this miserable state.

But now is a new live and i hope so can maintain this situation as got a little sweet moments between me and b. For those who know whats b thats good , but if those who don't know i won't tell unless is the right time cause is not really stable yet as we want to keep low....

I really hope his the one for me and i am the one for him..... i don't want to be reminded of him but i will face this problem bravely as escaping is not the right way to slove the problem. It will only makes you more miserable. So as Jane you also must face your problem bravely ok? Let's fight this unhappy past together! :]

30 January 2010

2010-01-30T07:49:00.000-08:00

Today some sort alot of people want to ask me out like ah bao ask me for pool i think... chuan kai ask me out for dinner and others also.... yupp :] But..... i rejected them as in cause i'm having dinner with my sister and brother in law and my mother today i mean outside at IMM.

We had our dinner wan zai hong kong stall and me and my sister and brother in law we ordered the same food seafood baked rice and it was quite nice. Well as for our drinks my sister ordered ice yuan yang and as for me? I ordered ice milk tea. But.... it wasn't really nice but this ice milk tea is special cause on top they got put a scoop of ice cream and the ice cream is nice :]

We waited for so long and finally our baked rice arrived le but is one by one so my brother in law let me have first. Follow by my sister follow by his. Haha i'm always slow while eating then my mother and sister keep nagging wa you are the first to eat and last to finish.... then i don't care them cause as i wasn't really feeling well so i keep quiet. And so i faster finish although i am full i got to force myself to eat a little bit more until it left a little bit. Then my mother say why left abit don't want to finish it? So i say cause i'm full already so she say full already still drink the soup and drink the tea? So i say plus altogether of course i will full le mahz....

Then after our dinner my sister ask my mother have she buy new year clothes for me? So my mother say haven't and then we went to fox and look at my clothes and my sisters too. :] And then my sister help me choose for me and i trust her taste and i choose one of them also. I don't trust my mother taste is because abit old haha xD you might say im bad but i'm just stating the fact. So i try the clothes it looks good :]

And so we make payment it cost 100 plus worz only 3 clothes for me omg!! Then we went to Giodano to take a look at those pants for me but in the end don't have my size... sad man... ok lorz then never mind then after finish trying dea suddenly call me haha happy happy then we chat abit suddenly kana hang up i thought why she hang up then she call me she say she didn't hang up so she say i think is because of the reception so i say sorry to her cause i misunderstand her...

Then she say lols is not your fault mahz silly and all kind of stuffs then she heard the chinese new year song she say wa you so early listen ler then i say is because im outside and all that haha xD Then we went to Giant then dear say she need to bathe ler so i say oh ok but i can't bear to hang up :X haha xD After reaching Giant we went to buy the fuji apple drink and alot more like pocket tissues and dynamo and detergent. Wa damn heavy lehz!!

While in my brother in law carthey keep talking about jobs... sianz everytime talking about this topic i really feel very sianz lorz and fustrated.... but then talking about my feelings for today i feel like crying cause i feel touch that my sister buy for me my chinese new year clothes. My mother?? Haiz don't want to say....

But one thing i really want need to admit is my brother in law is correct cause he know that i myself really don't know what i want... when he say this to me i really feel like crying cause i really feel damn useless.... well i really have nothing to say cause he is really right....i have no choice but to admit that i really can't find my path cause i'm still like a child... thats why i was thinking now i know why my mother feels worried about me is because i don't know what i want and alot of things like i don't know how to take care of myself......

haiz......

29 Jan 2010

2010-01-28T23:04:00.000-08:00

The photos that we take together today :]

Dear studying wa so good girl?? Haha of course you are :]

Hmm this picture can you tell whether are we acting cool or cute?? :D

Cheese!! I love this photo!! :D

Do we look alike?? :]

I look ugly in this picture but dear looks nice :] eh the poles are extra man :[

The 2 of us! :]

Big Head haha! :]

Me trying to be cool :)

Haha me with funny face! xD

Oh dear so scary~~ :O

Dear take this photo specially for me :]

Eh dear arhz... what are you doing on my head arhz?? :[

Hehehe my naughty dear :P

Can you tell how happy we are? :D

Natural smile :]

DEAR THANKS ALOT I REALLY WANT TO THANK GOD FOR LETTING ME TO KNOW YOU :] I REALLY HAVE ALOT OF THINGS TO TELL YOU AND YOU ARE REALLY VERY PRECIOUS TO ME :]

THE END :]

29 Jan 2010

2010-01-28T22:17:00.000-08:00

Hello everybody!! :] hahaha don't blame me for being so hyper haha cause today i finally get to meet my dear thats why hope you all can forgive haha xD. Eh today actually suppose to meet dear at 10.15 then i arrive early around 10.05am then dear late so is ok and so we message alot today haha then she say she go toilet then come and find me :) then wait until 10.40 then finally she arrive then she saw me and i saw her also just nice the stairs i was standing at haha xD.

So i said wa stress lehz your school alot of people worz :/ then she say haha don't stress lahz or maybe we go some where near my school? So i say oh ok then when we were waiting for the bus suddenly she change her mind cause today she got test she scared she late so i say oh ok lorz :) then she say so you still stress mahz? :) so i say yup abit.

Then she keep saying so happy today finally can meet you :D so i say me too!! Haha then we keep chatting all the way haha so i give her the doraemon that i bought for her then suddenly she say for me? Then i say yupp so she ask me this question why am i so sweet?? So i answer her i don't know haha no lahz in my heart i will answer is because you are my dear haha xD

Well then we reach her school canteen she help me buy vegetartian rice? Cause she is vegetarian :) Haha some how we are really gum totally don't know how to say xD and after that she help me buy drinks so she ask me dear what you want to drink? Hot or Cold? So i say hmm i don't know? So i say hmm tell you what you help me buy green tea? :) so she say i know haha so i say huh how you know de? :O Then she say cause that time i want to buy drink i ask you what drink you want then you say green tea you remember mahz? So i say oh oh i forget ler haha xD then she say wa forget ler arhz?? I kill you arhz haha xD

Then i laugh and say pai sehz lahz haha xD then i continue to think how to describe her name. After coming back from helping to buy the drinks for me and herself i said hey can you guess this?? Then in the end she got it i let her think for her name 5 mins she happy haha xD then 2nd more difficult got her surname she don't know haha xD interested what i wrote for her?

Special

Extremely

Rare

Excellent

Never

Emotional

Caring

Hilarious

Ever

Willing :)

Then she write for me although it doesn't match for my name but i also like :) she write

Special

Caring

Understanding
Kind

Good analyer ( which is good in analyse )

Confident

Is you my dear! :)

Haha xD I'm so happy! Then we went to take photos for the 2 of us haha xD at first i thought she won't have time then she will say don't want so i didn't mention but she is the first who mention haha xD so i say ok lorz :] and we took alot worz :D

15 January 2010

2010-01-15T03:43:00.000-08:00

Wa~~ today damn emotional lahz cause actually today meeting dear but in the end got to postpone to her holiday ler which is april cause her exams are coming soon then some more today she got diherroha and she feeling weak today thats why haiz sad :'( so we chat abit lohz then she no choice got to go school cause got quiz.... so i tell her to rest if she get back home poor dear :(

Then after i wake up i reply her message then she call me and chat about few seconds? or maybe a few mins. After that i went to my cousin house for lunch then we came back to my house together is because she want to use my laptop to do her homework then i let her use haha she type till very slow so i keep saying her then she keep laughing and say wa stop it lehz like that very stress lehz... so i tell her i'm just stating the facts lorz if you go poly you sure die de lorz they between 1 week must finish their projects you know.

So she keep laughing then i tell her haizya i type for you lahz type until so slow by the time you type already sun come out ler lorz then i help her type before i help her type i read to her then she spell by herself some words she spell she spell wrongly. Then i keep shouting at her like you sure you spell correctly?? Then the more she correct the more mistake she makes. So i shout pronounce correctly!! Then i say particular become particulary?!! Then she oh oh~~ she keep laughing i also laugh we both funny she like maths but i don't i like english but she don't haha xD

Then she say you quite smart horz she ask me how much i get for my n'level eng so i say grade 5 only then she say wa good lehz i was saying where got good??!! So after she finish her homework we watch Hi Sweetheart the show which act by rainie yang and show luo.

Then we almost cry out cause quite sad... When the show ends she went back home then is my turn to use. After using for 3o mins plus my mother reach home then she starts to nag again i just hope she can keep her mouth shut before i can't tolerate her any more!! I know i shouldn't say this cause is very hurtful but if you were me how will you feel if your mother everyday reach home the first thing she do is nag and nag and nag!

She keep asking me do this do that and is like ordering me to do i got no appetitie she keep forcing me to eat arhz!! can't stand her and i really can't tolerate her anymore!!! I tell you madam teng if you keep staying in this situation i will really leave this house!!! I will rent a house with my friend and we will stay together!!!!

CAN'T STAND HER MAN!! JUST NOW REALLY FEEL LIKE SCOLDING HER!! WTH!

10 January 2010

2010-01-10T06:26:00.000-08:00

Today went to meet out with chuan kai and mei sin. Then around morning mei sin message me tell me that she will meet me at my house downstair the bus stop there but i didn't reply cause i was sleeping like a log and i don't know i got message cause i put silent mode.

So she called my house and look for me i thought is dear but is not then until mei sin tell me ask me guess who is she so i don't bother so much i tell her don't know then she say mei sin lahz then i say oh ya why so she say i message you you didn't reply... so i say i was sleeping mahz then she say 11pm le you still sleeping? We meeting chuan kai at 12 remember?? So i sa yaya then i say ok ok so she tell me she wait for me at my house downstair the bus stop so i say ok after that i go and bath.

After bathing i come out of the bathroom i went to change my clothes , after changing dear called me and then we chat awhile while i was waiting for mei sin. Love chatting with dear dear hehe then we chat until i meet mei sin and we walk together until the traffic light dear say she call me later but in the end never :( so i was thinking never mind she is busy but we still got message :)

Then after that we meet chuan kai at amk mac then he is late so i disturb him at first who ask me not to be late arhz in the end don't know who late worz so he smile and then he give me the present and guess what?? Is my favourite cartoon character!!! STITCH!! Thanks alot arhz chuan kai!!! :D eh mei sin is winnie the pooh but is small mine is bigger than hers :)

So after receiving our presents we went to order our food and start eating and chit chat alot then when is time to go we send chuan kai off cause he meeting his friends at tampines so he take bus 22 from the interchange then after he board the bus we went to shop around for 15mins then i send mei sin off to the under tunnel.

Then i went to look for jane so she ask me whether want me to wait for her so i say ok arhz haha xD but she say why not you go shop around first? So i say ok lorz but i went to lan shop with marilyn to use computer awhile. She know my current situation so she offer to sponsor then after that i say ok lorz then i play for 1 hour 30 min i went to look for jane cause she knock off already.

After reaching i saw jane then she say another friend coming so i say oh ok then we chat alot at first im quite shy then more friends to come so i was like :O then we wait for them very long at library. Jane was hungry already then finally they arrive jane intro them to me i was like shy then after that we chat while we are chatting i realised they are damn funny haha xD

and it was like one of her friend she ask me alot of funny questions like if im a guy will girls like me that kind of stuffs... so i keep answering yes all that then we chat alot and laugh alot.. :) after that we went to fairprice then me and jane and the other friend wait for them so i take my stitch to hug awhile then the friend which ask me alot of that silly questions she say lend me the stitch awhile and all that she keep twisting the head and her saliva touch stitch :'( cause she taking photo with my stitch...

so after that we went to send one of her friends off to board the bus then we accompany jane back home while walking i keep helping the friend which ask me alot of silly questions to mention Jane's name correctly cause she is from china then indeed got improve :) so i ask her shout janes name loudly haha xD then jane keep saying is wrong then i say whatever haha then when we reach her house downstair they walk back themselves me too :)

YAY!! tomorrow meeting dear!! Playing badminton with dear also :) LOVE YOU :)

9 January 2010

2010-01-09T06:00:00.000-08:00

Today i stay at home all day never go out but.... today i chat alot on the phone with dear and i feel sad for dear cause she going to break with her bf cause her bf don't treat her as a girlfriend at all.... hmm i hope i can say the guy ask him to treasure her but then i think better not is because is their matters all i can do is listen first....

but then i got tell her before think twice before you made up your mind as in decision cause i don't want her to regret after she make her decision and then i ask her alot of question to judge and give her choices so i said hmm if thats the case you use this method but i got no gurantee that 100% will patch back as in he regret and he wants her back

so i told her since thats the case break up with him lorz see how he reacts back but dear told me she miss him alot and all those well beginning of the break up is like this i know the feeling is miserable but got to bear it ok :') be brave i will support you de dear :)

hmm i will accompany you if you want :)

7 January 2010

2010-01-07T19:01:00.000-08:00

On the friday 7 January 2010 during the noon bing han message me he playing pool so i ask huh really? can i come along? so he say of course can if not why i message you? :) so i say oh ok then i was late i suppose to meet him at 4pm in the end i late for 15mins then i told him sorry that im late then he say ok you're late so bb

So i say ee but i not purposely de mahz so he say don't worry i will wait de lahz :) so i say ee don't like that scare people lehz then when we meet at yck mrt station we went to the community club there to play pool then after that we play for 3 hours quite fun haha xD

Really thank him alot :) he know my current situation thats why he won't ask back for money eh other friends also but not like somebody..... then after the game we went to eat dinner together at amk hub his other 2 friend got something on so i accompany him eat. Before we went to the food court we went to buy bubble tea honeydew milkshake his jelly is peach and mine is lychee haha xD

then we went to eat fried fish bee hoon soup after dinner we chat alot then we went to walk around then i insist he send me back then he say ok lorz haha then while walking under the trees he kana bird shit behind his back luckily is shirt only then i keep laughing because he ask did something drop on my shirt? So i turn back then he ask isi't bird shit? so i say yapp haha xD

then he say ee still laugh at me so sad haha then i ask him want to take tissue from my house mahz? so he say ok lorz suddenly when we reach my house shelter there his mother called and ask where is he then he say he kana bird shit then he come to my house to take tissue then his mother insist him to go back before 10.15pm then no choice he got to take cab then suddenly my father saw me and him stupid shit!

when he reach home he keep saying any how make friends lahz next time you see your future is how one lahz stupid lorz you don't know him don't anyhow talk cock lahz exist you very smart like that! everytime act clever only but actually you are stupid lorz!! if you are not that smart don't act smart and pls lahz you didn't do your job as a good father so might as well just shut up lahz!!

then today 8 jan maybe later we going to play pool again.... i will try my best to win!! haha xD

happy new year! 2 jan 2010

2010-01-02T02:30:00.000-08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY! HAPPY NEW YEAR! haha ok erm sorry for the very long waiting as due to i am busy for and no time to update my blog =) haha still glad somebody is interested in viewing my blog cause i was thinking if nobody view then might as well delete it!! LOLS

eh recently i feel so some how very happy cause my dear is very understanding haha and those msn and fb nick is for her hope she know it =P hmm wednesday right which is one the 30 dec 2009 i went out with her for playing badminton and cycling it was quite fun you know although i got to suffer alot lahz i mean my right hand from back to front the right side very pain until i cant stretch!

but i still enjoy being with her cause after being with her i realise she is the person i can chat with very well so im really grateful to her =) hmm right right alot of events i have been attending didn't write and share is because tired and lazy haha xD but long story cut short

recently i have been playing pool and i am very serious with it ok!! not play play de although i am not that pro yet but i will still work hard on it cause i want to prove that im pro so i won't let my master down you stupid pig! haha lols joking only =) btw erm for people who comment me right can pls write down your name? thanks alot =)

so so hmm later going to have dinner with jane =D

btw my dear just lost her hp arhz!!! why singaporeans like that de? if you saw somebody hp drop what and how will you deal with it? if is me i will call the persons friend or family ask them to collect i won't sell it as it is very inconsiderate and very rude ok!! if i take your things go and sell how will you feel!!

eh that sentence is to scold those person who take people hp go and sell and thats all goodbye =)

2009-11-28T08:08:00.001-08:00

on the 25 nov i went out with jane and is a wonderful day cause we so long didn't meet ler thats why. =) but then we went to dhoby ghuat to look for her things like sushi things quite alot and i think she broke le bahz =X and thanks for her treat as in she treat me mac =) and after we meet i chat alot with her just don't know why suddenly will chat damn lots of things opps =P

then it was like we went to meet marilyn after we reach amk then we play a prank with her saying about i like her BUT! IS IMPOSSIBLE =x haha pai sehz already say is a prank =)

Oh erm~ like to thank alot of my friends who treat me due to my birthday ya even though belated or what is ok de no worries =) like erm yu ying my cousin , chuan kai my best guy friend , kit keong and his gf emily , marilyn for my tissue box present , and racheal noodles . I really like to thank you guys alot =D

MANY THANKS TO ALL OF YOU =D LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH

21 Novemeber 2009

2009-11-21T02:58:00.000-08:00

Hey everybody long time didn't update ler cause lazy and busy haha~

Erm first i would like to share is love experience from the friends i've heard =)

Hmm....actually recently alot of things happen as in one of them she know this guy and then this guy ask her for being his gf so she i happy and then she agreed to be cause they know each other for months get along well but then one time during the national day we meet up and went to her family condo their for celebration and then i saw her bf.

Well the impression he give me is not a good bf but then after a few months until around oct she told me that they break up because he still have feelings for his ex and they patch back together i was so angry with him that i feel like slapping him you know why? cause this guy is selfish that is like she just treat my friend like a dog as in accompany is like he don't even think for her feelings and now he said don't message him or call him and don't meet him i was like feel like slapping him so hard and give him a scolding!!

another story is another friend of mine she break up with her bf for so long and she still have feelings for him but as for the reason i don't know so much so i tell her alot of things as ion to think in a positive way as in at least she manage to be together with the guy she love but other girls like me don't get a chance to so why not lets think in a positive way as in you should feel happy cause you have a wonderful memories with him when you are in a relationship with him that time =)

Well all i wanted to tell you girls is that i can imagine how sad you are but then why not lets think in a positive way? as for the girl im describing in the first story you don't have to feel sad over this guys is because his not worth for you to be sad and you should carry on living happily to proof to him that even the days without him you also will live happily

as for the girl im describing in story 2 i know you still miss him but at least you have a wonderful memory with him before and you should feel happy although i've never been in a relationship before but then i can imagine how you feel but then all i can say is think in a positive way alright =)

well as for me erm im admiring the guy but he got his partner rightn now and they are happily together well during my birthday that day it was a miserable day and happy day for me cause got to see them being together and in a sweet way also and then i got to hide my sad face got to force myself to pretend not to be sad and happy instead. But what i can say is i must think in a positive way also although alot of them say give up on him i thought maybe a miracale so i continue to wait but now i think is to take it natural cause nobody knows what will happen to the future right? =)

is this coinsidence or fate?

2009-11-21T01:54:00.000-08:00

hi everybody before i create this story you all may guess whether is this true story. Well i create this is because is my true story so i only hope you will enjoy it. If you enjoy you can also can help me recommend this story to other people so that there will be more readers =) btw pls comment after reading it thanks =D

this story is called " IS THIS COINSIDENCE OR FATE? "

One day there was this girl call tingting and that time she was having har school holiday so she went to find a job to earn money for living. So the HR phone her and told her what time to start work and then she was boring while working so she went around to make new friends. Then suddenly she saw this guy so familiar and then suddenly it remind her that she saw him in school always walking along the corridor but that time they don't know each other so she went to ask him

" hey are you studying at BS HIGH SCHOOL?? " so he reply yapp and you are? So they started to intro themselves and then tingting started to ask yangyang which is the guy name she ask him hey later want to go back together? So he say sure =)

And then they started to go to the mrt station but before that they went to eat ice cream and they started chatting. YangYang say do i know you? So tingting say nope but i know you cause everytime i saw you walking along the schooll corridor so that means you are my senior =) then he say oh really?? But how come i didn't saw you? So she say don't know maybe you are busy haha =D

So yy said oh ya maybe btw how you know is me?? so tt said cause i can regonise your face and then its late at night so he send her home walk her to the lift where she stay then after she step in the lift and then they said goodbye. But then tt scared he will be boring so she started to message him and said so where are you now? yy replied i just board in the bus after few minutes going to reach home soon =) what about you??

So she said haha ok then while i just finish bathing now watching tv awhile after that going to sleep soon :) so he replied oh ok then good night =) so tt ask him whats your shift tomorrow? so yy said m shift so tt ask then do you wanna meet to go to work together? so he said oh ok meet you at amk mrt station at 8.30 then =) so tt replied said ok =)

then the next day tt drop off the bus at the bus stop near the station suddenly she saw him walking to the station so she started laughing and chase him and then walk behind him so after he reach the station he was wondering where is she. Then tt tapped his shoulder and said are you looking for me?? So he started smiling and said eh you reach le arhz so she said yapp =) then they started to take the train together to go to work and then they started chatting and after 30 minutes they reach their working place and then they said see you later =)

MORE COMING SOON~ =D

11 November 2009

2009-11-11T06:23:00.000-08:00

Few days ago kk gf chatted with me through msn and today we meet and we plan to window shopping but then before that we went to have lunch. So after that she say she going to pass kk his movie tickets with his ns friends.

So waited quite long then i wanted to go toilet after going to toilet i thought she will return and i thought she can't find me so i went back to the hawker centre but in the end she is not there so went to walk awhile then i went to the hawker there de bench near the escalator.

After sitting awhile finally she is back and then she tell me that he ask her to accompany them to the arcade. Then we scared he will find out we are meeting each other so we went to other levels to walk. Then suddenly we decide to let him know cause nothing to hide since we are friends then actually plan to shock him but in the end he never fetch her le cause he got some thing on.

But then before she tell me that he is not coming to fetch her we are watching movie. The movie is called my girlfriend is an agent. Is a funny show cause at first they don't know each other that the each of them are agents. Because of this they break up 2 times until they work a case together then they know then they save each other and then they are back again.

Then before we went to the cinema we were taking the lift to there when we come out we saw him looking over here so i tell her i saw him i saw him!! But then after he turn here he turn back in front actually i think he didn't saw me. Then i faster run to the toilet we two laugh and say luckily he didn't saw us.

Then after going to toilet we went to watch the movie and after the movie suddenly racheal saw me due to my laughter she heard. Then we chat abit then we went back home.

Actually after i meet her now i know why he like her is because she is quite good and better than me. After i saw him today i remember what i ask for i ask for heaven i don't request that much or anything i just request for seeing him again if you really did let me see him again that means that i will give up on him seems like i really get the answer already..... seems like i need to give up le~

24 October 2009

2009-10-24T06:06:00.000-07:00

Today i wemt to look for chuan kai and then we went to practice guitar with my guitar then i lend him his guitar. Then after practicing for 2 hours we went to dohby ghuat to yamaha music store to check out the price for the electric guitar.

Then when i saw the one i like i aim at that and i ask the person do they sell with one set? So he say ya iand it cost $509.00 so i decided to buy one of it although is expensive i decided to save my money and buy it. I think it will take 2 months time to save enough money to buy it.

So after looking at it we went to mac to eat and he treat me first cause i not enough money then he also help me to buy my pick first then in total i owe him $7.50 then next time when we meet i will return back to him.

After that we went to arcade to play awhile and it was fun fun fun!!! haha then after that we went to walk around and then we take the train back to seng kang then we take the same bus 86 he take until his house bus stop there then i take to amk lan shop the bus stop.

Btw when i was in the bus there was this stupid uncle we dig his nose and pluck the nose hair so hard and it is so disgusting and it was like he very idiot lorz then when he going to get down the bus he hold the pole so idiot!!! And many people keep starring at me i was just behind him only lorz feel like saying that stupid uncle xP

16 October 2009

2009-10-16T02:40:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to meet madeleine to do assignments then we went to library to do and her bf also come then is like his face is fierce then she keep saying he scare me then in the end when we do finish they went dating then in end i went to meet marilyn we went to lan shop cause she want to play comp.

Then yesterday waited for her damn long around 3 hours plus then is like the whole day i didn't play game and then wait for her i listen to my ipod until my ipod empty battery le then she still playing then i was damn pissed of so i tell yu ying about it then is like keep asking me to relax then i tell her can't in the end when i play my lappy game card game even though can't use the internet then end up she waited for me

Then i ask mother to give me ten dollars cause i need to eat then in the end i buy a magazine which got taylor swift cause i damn like taylor swift haha although it cost $9 is still worth it haha xD recently i want to have a band members is because i want to compose songs and all that i manage to search for people who knows how to play guitar and piano tee my friend knows how to play bass and piano and guitar but he stop learning for 3 years plus but he still can teach me haha xD

I will start to have this idea is all thanks to my idol who give me this type of courage =) thanks taylor swift =D then i was like yesterday im abit sad cause madeleine tell me about the accounting matter devi keep saying is not fair and all that i was like so arhz forget it then she said if jia qing her bf give me those type of face don't care cause he don't like i kana bully

so i say ok but actually i mind but not really that mind lahz anyway forget it when i reach home i want to use my laptop to play game then in the i only use awhile my stupid sister turn off the modem wth so angry damn one thing which i am very funny which is when i am angry i will also cry well sounds ridic right?? I also don't know why maybe is because i am also sad bahz haha

Then marilyn saw me cry she want to go home then in the end the both of us laugh cause very funny i make her laugh and she make me laugh =D then she go home le then my mother was about to sleep i keep scolding vulgarities cause i am very angry then she ask me don't like that then in the end we argue then when i say about filial thing she keep quiet cause all along she don't know...

Oh ya my cousins they all will ask me i scold vulgarities?? Haha erm i scold but i seldom will scold lahz cause got to avoid scolding unless i am very angry i will scold so yesterday all those f words all come out and visit me what i mean so long they didn't visit me until yesterday.

Then i tell marilyn you seldom see me scold those f words right?? Now i let you see then she laugh cause i take my frog boster keep throwing on the floor my hair will get messy then she go home that time i hide myself in the toilet to read magazine cause my mother don't allow me to sleep so late due to my health.... then i read until 2 plus i go bed then she wake up go toilet then she come out from the toilet she lie down back to the bed before she continue to sleep she pat my head then today her tone is nice

But in the end later will continue back the same way cause i know her pattern

Later going to lan shop cause very unhappy today thanks to yesterday....

13 October 2009

2009-10-13T08:44:00.000-07:00

Tonight i was searching for information and had a video chatting with madeleine but then msn de video chatting is not good so we use the phone to chat then after that we use web cam to see each other then we talk about our own personal matters and then we also got discuss about our OB assignments so we have decided that i find the information then she will do

After that she chat about her health and the both of us cried because the both of us are sad then we chat alot ask her don't do it cause she got to think for her families and friends after that i tell her did you ever think for your friends that they will feel sad for you?? So she say they will find their own partners but i didn't tell her some thing which is:

" But do you have ever think of me?? Even is just a small matter i also cry do you know what does this means?? I really care and worry about you do you know that?? How can you just decide your own path like that?? So those that mean if i want to die i also don't have to think for you?? :'( "

To maddie: After you tell me all this i feel very sad but no matter what there is always have a way to slove the problem unless you yourself have given up i hope you won't give up :'(

TO ME I AM A PERSON WHO REALLY CARES ABOUT MY FRIENDS ESPECIALLY BUT THEN SOME TIMES NONE OF THEM SEEMS TO KNOW ONLY YOU AND I FIND THAT WE HAVE THE SAME SIMILARITIES YOU ALSO WILL THINK SO AM I RIGHT?? IF YOU REALLY UNDERSTAND THERE'S SOME ONE WHO REALLY DO TREASURE YOU AND THAT PERSON IS ME PLEASE DON'T DIE!! :'( DEAR FATHER PLEASE DON'T TAKE MADELEINE AWAY x'O "

13 October 2009

2009-10-13T00:38:00.000-07:00

Today i was suppose to meet madeleine go her house there do assignment but in the end she not feeling well but actually can meet her do cause she say she can do assignment even though she never go school.

So when is time to step out i take the bus suddenly she tell me don't need go le cause her fever high till 39 degrees so i say huh i in the bus le lehz then in the end i drop off suddenly she say ok lorz then i think we do at my house lock downstair cause lazy to go mac then i tell her i drop off le lehz haiz you want to meet mahz if yes i go if no i go back in the end never go le i was never mind....

Some more jane today tell me she saw him in amk hub so i ask her huh when was it he alone or with friend or a girl which is his gf so she say alone some sort got abit of rushness to find him up and down in the end we didn't meet each other i think we are really not fated to be together bahz.... i was so sad i nearly cried at the bus stop cause seems like i really don't exist in his world....

lyrics from taylor swift song " You're not sorry" you don't have to call any more i won't pick up the phone this is last straw don't want to hurt any more..... If I didn't know could have loved you all my life if you had'nt left me waiting in the cold and you've got your share of secrets and i'm tired of being last to know.....

I have make a grave mistake which is i shouldn't ask you to be my god brother shouldn't be close friends :'( i miss the times we have been together while we are single we haven't meet for each other about 3 months or more than that seems like you won't care about it....i really don't know what to say are you so cold blooded? x'O

monday 5 October 2009

2009-10-05T06:33:00.000-07:00

Today during lesson i wasn't able to concentrate cause i feel sleepy cause todays lesson very boring and very hard to understand thats why..... erm something which troubles me is that todays feeling with madeleine after few weeks or about 1 month we didn't chat after the misunderstandings we are friends again but then.....

I realise something which is after we were back together again we seems like don't have much things to chat like last time like that well i don't know why maybe is because i am quiet??? Eh but then i think im quite a chatterbox lehz.... heh heh =D hmm what ever it is the only thing i can say is i am happy that the misunderstanding is cleared...

Eh yesterday i went to my ah gong house then i normally will chat with jueli which is my cousin which i am close with then i ask her a question which is " would you rather follow the guy which you admire or you will follow a guy which likes you even though he is 1 year younger than you?? " So she replied i wouldn't choose the both of them cause if you follow the guy which you admire but he don't admire you then whats the point of being together?? If the guy is younger i won't follow because he is younger than me....

So i laugh haha oh ok then we started to chat about this 2 guys yeah right is about him ad wilfred... so i told her something funny which is one time i tell him to put perfume cause i like guys which know how to style themselves =) so he said " oh now i know why i don't have girlfriends le because i smelly..." so i say him where got don't be ridiculous lahz so does that means that if those guys who put perfumes means they smelly?? Then me and my cousin started to laugh some more we laugh out damn loud haha xD so i tell her that he reply back no lahz i joking only -_-"l then we keep laughing non stop =D xD

Eh today in the morning i dream of my cousin telling me that he publish these words in my facebook telling me " erm i think you better forget about me bahz and i am sorry that i treat you in this way...." so i was wondering should i forget him and i am wondering is this true?? So i went to login my facebook in the end it didn't i was afraid it might turn out real and i was damn afraid =(

well end of todays story.... but there's a sentence i might use to describe my story which is

Sometimes you must know after the rain it might not always have a rainbow...

what does this mean?? eh that means sometime what you wish for it might not came true?? i think so.....

I wish to let you know you are my light that guides my path =)

17 September 2009

2009-09-17T08:11:00.000-07:00

Today my emotion colour is blue blue represents sad yes i am indeed and today while on the way to school i always listen to my ipod while listening to those sad music i nearly cry my tears nearly drop.....

But i manage to hold on then can't focus studying for my exam in the end when i look at the questions i can't do cause i didn't know the answers then after 1 hour i immediatly leave the room then in the end i feel like crying again....

: Madeleine ~ I really treat you as my sister and best friend but then i really don't know how can i let you know i really treat you as my best friend and sister do you know after you ignore me i feel like crying and i am very worried about your health?? I know you don't like her and she don't like you also but then i didn't have the intention to use you or what i didn't talk to them till monday then i start chatting with one of them i didn't chat with you because i want to let you cool down and i really don't know the reason why you ignore me after the iec 2nd retake exam.... is like you sentence me to death without any reason

: Mother ~ i have nothing to say but you are totally unreasonable until i am starting to dislike you from bad to worst if you continue like this i don't know i can hold on how long but proberly even can die also can....

After the exam i went to raffles to look for hongmei but i don't know where she work then i find also can't find her so i go home again i feel like crying in the train..... then after i reach amk i went to cheers to buy an orange juice then i take bus home......

17 September 2009

2009-09-16T20:52:00.000-07:00

During the 16 september i cried for 3 times 1st is can't hold on much and mother keep adding me pressure in the end i cried and it was like she don't even bother at all and then i ask racheal out we went to amk hub and orchard to look for marilyn. At first she wanted to go first but in the end she came back cause she is thirsty.

After marilyn come out then we went to orchard mrt station the 7 eleven we buy bread and maggie mee and drinks then we started chatting and marilyn knows that i'm sad cause i seldom go find her then after i tell her what happen they all started to console me suddenly her mother call and say her and is because my mother tell her that i didn't go to school is because of that day she stay over night.

Before that she ask me tomorrow i no school is't? So i tell her only for today but before i continue she started to say is't because ofd marilyn she stay overnight? So i keep quiet cause i don't want to quarrel with her then she go tell marilyns mother that because of her stay overnight i didn't go to school wth is because i having holiday and normally i got school i get to have $20 but now i short of money so i lied to her if i tell her i having holiday she sure ask my dad not to give me so much!!!!

So i scolded her why you go complain to her mother so she ask like that is complain arhz so i say yes!!! I ask a question if your mother go complain to your friends mother without knowing what happen will you get angry?? Is like you don't want face i want face lorz!!!! WTH!!! Then is like she started to blame me in the end is like i feel very disappointed why i got this type of unreasonable so i scold her i now very stress arhz!!!! So she started to shout at me you stress what stress??!!! Wth so are you trying to tell me i have no stress at all??

STUPID SHIT!!! You are the one who one who wants me then you not in a good mood you shout at me then you good mood you ok ok wth you think what i'm a dog?? I'm a human got feelings one ok!! Even animals have feelings also!!! I was wondering you as a mother didn't do a good example as a good mother i didn't say you should be happy already lorz!!!! Then i started crying then they two started to console me marilyn tell me i shouldn't cry then but i just can't stop crying then after that we sit until we went back to amk mac and sit down then she started calling me again so i reject it because the phone is spoilt can't be heard so i reject she herself also know then she message me you cut off my call right??

So i use marilyn phone to call her i ask what you want so she started to call me go back home now if not she don't allow me to go out i say you started to say are you trying to threaten me now??!!! So she say if not you won't listen to me if not you come home that time you then you know!! So i hang her call what a unreasonable mother she want to restrict me from using comp and watching tv wth!!!

16 september 2009

2009-09-16T04:17:00.000-07:00

Tried to hide my tears but can't hold on any longer after crying is much better but after that my mother keep on giving me pressure can't take it any longer....

Told myself that life is still long and you still have a long long way to go but even though no matter how hard life is you must hold on....

Told myself after today it will be fine thats the only way i can hold but what will happens i don't know suddenly got a rush to take a knife and poke myself but that is a wrong way to do

Told myself no matter what happens some friends may be there for you but is't true?? I don't know....

Told myself if your sister and relative knows they will scold you rather than worried about you

Told myself how i wish i wasn't born out

Told myself i musn't think this way

Told myself i am still young but who cares??

Told myself i am really sick about it what else can i do??

Told myself soon will be crazy because i'm too stress out!!!

16 September 2009

2009-09-16T03:36:00.000-07:00

Kind of sad today cause my friend the one i really like is starting to treat me cold i really don't know what is the reason why she treat me like this is it because she think i'm using her?? I didn't on the monday she saw me talking to shi ling then she think i'm back with them happily.

But i'm not even though is yes but i didn't have the intention to use her also i mean what will i get if i use her?? Nothing right?? I really don't know whats going on i wish you can tell me whats the reason why are you treating me in this way ='( x'O

But just want to let you know i still treat you as my sister and best friend now my heart is feeling terrible tears dropping out from my eyes i really don't know what are you thinking and at the same time i'm really worried about your health please don't ignore me i really hope that our friendship is ruined just because of them ='(

12 August 2009

2009-08-12T07:27:00.000-07:00

Today i wake up late cause i was suppose to meet madeleine at 7 but i wake up at 7.15 then when she phone me that time i was still sleeping then suddenly she tell me she at the mrt station already so i say oh shit sorry i forget i now wake up so she say better wake up now so i rush and pack all my thngs without having my breakfast in the end i have breakfast at mac then we went to class but then when we reach class i very tired cause i not enough sleep and then during break we tell teacher that we will go first later we willcome back in the afternoon lesson then after that we went to long john to sit there.

Then we went to carrerfour at plaza sing then we went to buy some chips haha then we play with the piano and we take photos when i sit on the bed =) then when we were at long john silver we take a lot of pictures :) i'm quite happy today not only today is when ever with madeleine =) after that suddenly we saw teacher came in then she order her food then we ask her to sit with us but in the end she never cause she scared she will make our books dirty.

Then when is time to go back to class we go back and i still feel sleepy then madeleine draw a pig then when i draw something teacher saw but then she ask me pay attention =( then in the end i didn't know what is she teaching cause today i feel very sleepy and tired then today teacher release us early then madeleine teach me cause she understand what did teacher teach. Thanks to her alot i manage to understand abit of it even though what she tell me i don't mind cause is natural =)

Then all i want to say is thanks to you alot and i can feel that we are true friends =)

10 August 2009

2009-08-09T22:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i went to meet my friends one of them i meet him in the morning and the other one i meet her at 12.45 and my cousin too. But before i meet my friend racheal and my cousin yi xiang i went to meet kian kiat first. But i was late cause i mop the floor and pack my things and then i went to meet him and he had hhis breakfast at mos burger at amk hub. When i saw him i was like can't even regonize him at all cause he change alot.

And he was in the army now then we chat alot when we meet and he sponsor me bubble tea and coffee bean and arcade :) his very nice i scared i will like him :X then we play the kiab kiab machine then only left $4 the $3 we can't catch it then we depend on the last $. Then he ask me to catch the body so i did and we manage to catch the stich haha xD and i like that stich alot :)

After that he keep saying that haha cause got me mahz then i say haha don't want face you damn thick skin lorz then he say my skin is thin one lorz some more i sponsor you lehz xD so i say ok lahz then you win liao lorz thank you lahz but actually we were joking de then after that we still have time he ask me want to drink starbucks? So i tell him here no starbucks then he say how about coffee bean? So i say yupp at this level which we were there so we went there then after that he treat me mocca :) quite nice.

Then after we chat alot about our love life experience is time to go meet racheal then we went there after we reach the bishan circle line we saw peter and a new girl name amaya but she is chinese :) then we chat alot for the first time i meet a new friend i first time chat alot with her :) and after that we meet a new guy and his quite funny and he got you muo gan haha xD he make all of us laugh until very funny especially racheals mother then she say he very funny xD.

Then at the night racheal's brother they all were playing in the swimming pool and they were preparing the water ballon and then there are food at the bbq pit there then they start to play the water ballon the first time the water ballon didn't splash then yi xiang take and throw outside 2nd time wilfred and yi xiang angry le then they take the water ballon yi xiang go and destroy those water ballon and wilfred throw in the pool then jarret ask me is my cousin angry so i explain alot his not angry this is is character so i say if you are angry about the water ballons then i say sorry to you on behalf for my cousin so he say he didn't mean by that and i say if not i pay you back a pack of the water ballon then he say he didn't mean by this after that he say is because he make me and peter mood spoil an dthen make us until want to go back and some more today is national day lorz

Then i say ok im sorry about this but all i want is everybody to be happy so he say ok then amaya and my cousin and wilfred keep aksing me what happen cause we saw you chatting with him so long so i say nothing but in the bus i tell them then yi xiag abit not happy then before we go home we got chat with racheals mother and brother and quite funny and then we tell her about racheal and whatever thing then is time to go we went to take bus go back home :(

3 August 2009

2009-08-03T06:26:00.000-07:00

This is yesterday's story which is 2 August 2009 Sunday. On the sunday i am very angry with my mother because early in the morning my mother use the cane and beat me i was feel like shouting at here but i control myself so i stare at her and then she keep asking me go and do housework change the bedsheet and mop the floor.

I was like very angry where got people like that wake people up ad keep asking people do work very idiotic lorz!!! Then i feel like stepping out of the house because of her! And then when i keep messaging hey are you free today? My mood not that good.. and then they all no free and then i was even more angry suan le never mind then i have nobody to turn to i have to call him le....then he say hmm what happen lehz? i today got work worz and then he said why you not in a good mood?

So i say because i'm angry with my mother then he say well you want to call me? So i say erm ok arhz then he ask me you not fang bian to call me arhz? So i say no lahz....so i call him lorz then i told him what happen after that he ask me alot of questions and all the questions he ask me i can't answer at all and what ever he say is really meaningful i mean got dao li.

After that we chat alot but the topic is about my family matter and when we chat about this topic i feel like crying because is quite.....i mean xin ku cause i keep bearing things to myself and nobody to talk to..... anyway after finish chatting with him i feel abit better =)

About today 3 August i only feel like saying recently all the matters i feel like saying is about my mother. My mother change alot and she seems to be like another person and i'm starting to dislike her alot not like last time i love her that much anymore...and she didn't even try her best to save this family i can't feel my mother love anymore....

29 July 2009

2009-07-29T01:06:00.000-07:00

Today hongmei message me to wake up cause we promise that we are meeting together and we went to the library then that time i wake up at 9a.m to go toilet then i went to message hongmei that i meet her at 12.30 then she say huh like that then next time then meet lorz cause i tell ping hui that i meet you she not happy le then i tell her huh ok lahz i wake up ok haha then she say never mind you want to sleep go sleep..

Then i say but i already wake up le lehz....so in the end we still meet at 11a.m. then i late for 5-10mins then i tell her sorry so she say never mind any way you always late de xD so i say sorry lahz xD then she keep asking me want go eat after i make my atm card? So i say but i just now got eat something. Then she say huh but i hungry so i say haha bo bian cause if you eat a bread or something you already full le then you don't need to eat le... then after making the card we went to the library cause she want to search for wedding preparations...

Then after that we went to ang mo kio hub to look for jane then after that we went to pepper lunch and we eat salmon pepper lunch set meal. haha then she go my house to do her project and after i tell marilyn if she reach le message me cause i plan to give hongmei a surprise then after that hongmei didn't know about this and then i open the door quietly and close the door quietly i ask marilyn to hide in the toilet first then i tell hongmei that i want to give her something

Then when we reach the toilet hongmei saw marilyn then they stare at each other awhile marilyn say BOO! Then hongmei get shocked haha long time didn't see her get shock le xD then i tell marilyn she should just jump out from the toilet and sout boo together so that she more shocked mahz then we keep laughing and then hongmei keep saying dead xinyu in chinese hahaha xD

Tell you something more funny today when we get off the train at ang mo kio the rain stop at the middle track after that the door open that time got sound right? Then we were wondering why the door haven't open cause got the sound already then suddenly the mrt staff shout from behind this way please then oh is from the back haha then we keep laughing then i say very embarrrasing lehz then she say now then you know arhz haha xD

And one more thing i cause hongmei don't know what happen when i was in taka then i explain till suddenly i say human resource and i keep saying human human resource then they keep laughing then i say i don't know why i keep saying human human then they keep laughing until my water go in my nose then after that is marilyns turn her water go in her nose then hongmei keep laughing hahahaha xD

18 July 2009

2009-07-18T01:16:00.002-07:00

This month and last month was the worst month ever haiz..... but then today after chatting with brian i feel that some people life story is more sad than mine well don't know how to put in but only thing i know is i must learn to be mature more.

Everybody got their own stories even though some people don't know how they feel but i learn that we must appreciate what we have now and don't request for too much things and i find that even though some friends are not that good i still have other friends like marilyn my bestie haha =)

Exam is on monday and wednesday but i have no heart to study cause the teacher sucks and affect my mood of studying omg and i haven't even memo a single page yet!. Today my sister saw my result slip she say get this type of result arhz then she ask my mother have she see the result slip then she say yes.

Then my sister say you better don't waste other peoples money arhz don't want to study just say lahz!

I was wondering why all of you must notice the F rather than the C? Ya lahz i know i don't have the capability but at least i try so hard for my bl you all didn't notice bl instead of my iec and you all keep give this type of words no wonder i don't have the heart to study lahz!!!

I was wondering is every parents and every of the sisters and brothers is like this?? Only know how to notice the negative side don't know how to notice the positive side?? Really very sick of it!!!

13 July 2009

2009-07-13T08:26:00.000-07:00

Today stay at home all day didn't go out cause next week is exam. But i haven't finish doing my assignment haiz wednesday need to hand in le. Then watch tv awhile. I hope i can faster finish doing my assignment cause i haven't start revising for my exam.

Then at night Yun Juan tell me the results come out le so i went to collect the letter and when i look at the results it was like i don't know how to react cause my business law get grade C which is 60% - 69% then my iec i get grade F which is fail.......

Then when i get back my mother was already at the door there and waiting for me -_-"l then when she ask me what is that so i say result slip......then she take a look when she see she only say the iec F means what? So i say you know you still ask then she say fail arhz then she say if you have no interest in study then don't watse the time and money.

I was wondering she didn't even praise me that i get a C for my business law that i work so hard for it and i really feel lke crying cause i study very hard for my business law and i want to let her see i will pass in the end i did pass but she didn't even praise me :'(

Maybe you guys will say maybe she didn't say out but actually in her heart she feel happy for you but she won't! Do you guys know in my whole life i seldom get a C!! Why instead of looking at the grade that i pass you must look at the negative grade?? WHY???????????????????? TELL ME WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really don't know should i hate you or what!!!! I'm sick of it already really!!! After that sentence you tell me i really don't feel like studying anymore!!!

11 July 2009

2009-07-12T00:09:00.000-07:00

Today damn angry with my sister cause now got two computer 1 is desktop and another 1 is laptop. Last time i ask my mother to sign for singtel internet because of the computer and the modem. Then my sister buy a table and put in her room why? Cause she treat it as her own computer and i'm the one who ask my mother to sign 1 ok!!

Then how about the laptop i am the 1 who ask my father to get me a laptop cause he got promise me to get me a laptop before after i get the laptop my sister keep saying don't think the laptop is your own property ok my heart was saying i am the one who ask my father to buy for me 1 ok!! If you have the ability to use mine you should have the ability to get 1 for yourself also!!!

She also set password as in i'm not supposed to download any stuff wtf!!! Is my laptop right!! Who do you think you are and who gives you the right to set password in my laptop??!!! And i also set a password for my computer account then she ask me why i set password you better make it away if not i will delete away!! Wth!!!

Then after i log in my sister take away and i say this sentence the room computer is already for you still not enough isi't!!!! Then she keep quiet and walk back in her room and i told marilyn about what happen yesterday then marilyn is always my listening ear whenever i am not appy i always share with her my feelings!!!

And yesterday i went to meet her and her friend i get to know also his name is brian and he is quite nice :) then when we meet he told me about those product which he is also selling cause we talking about business after finish talking he walk with us to the mrt station and we buy food and drink. We bought mr bean soya milk and old chang kee sardine puff. And he bought a chicken wing.

Then after finish buying we went to take train and he went back to the office building. Then me and marilyn we went to bishan J8 and we go have our dinner and we eat korean cuisine but we didn't finish cause we are too full. Then quite wasted also and after finish eating we went to mlphosis to take a look at the bag and after that we go to the library cause i need to find the books for my assignment for that stupid miss tricia ang.

But in the end is already 9pm and the library is closing omg we just went there for 5 minutes only. Luckily i manage to check the books of motivations and the abraham maslow book. After that we went back to J8 and look for my old colleague then we chat alot and we wait for him to knock off together after that we went for a drink and chat about the products.

After that he have to leave and we waited for marilyns boyfriend and his friend to fetch us for supper in the end they drink until they don't know where are they but luckily they found the road to yishun then they went to the beach you call that supper? Then my mother keep calling me and i got tell her what happen in the afternoon and i angry till i cry and she keep saying alot of console things.

Then they send us back and he drive very good then when i reach home is 1.57am and i eat my dinner is counted as supper then went to bed.....

8 July 2009

2009-07-08T03:26:00.000-07:00

Today i didn't manage to print my assignment and some more is the last day then when i saw yun juan when i talk to her i tap her shoulder then she say can don't tap my shoulder mahz then when we reach school i ask her you know in school where can print assignments mahz? Then in the end she tell me don't know library have i think then from that time onwards we chat again thanks father for blessing me and my friend can chat together again :)

Then from that time onwards we chat alot and when we hand in our assignments that stupid teacher have to check our assignments when i show her mine she say i think you have no interest in studies and she keep saying alot of rubbish what the f!!!!! If i have no interest in studies i won't rush everything in one day lorz!!!! Then when yun juan hear shi lin didn't hear

The shi lin complain her one more terrible so i say mine then more terrible bahz even yun juan also like that say my one more terrible some more she say until damn hurtful..... when we reach ang mo kio me and shi ling eat handmade noodle omg very sucks lorz the vegetable all brown colour some more very bitter lorz then after that after we went to the toilet si lin went to buy food for her mother and she buy the same food what we eat just now cause her mother wants to eat this.

After buying is going to rain le so we quickly go basement 2 to buy fried mushroom cause i want to eat after that we take bus home :)

7 July 2009

2009-07-08T02:33:00.000-07:00

During the 7 july marilyn come to my house and i know the first thing she will ask is can i use your computer? Haha so i say ok lorz then after that she ask me want to watch movie? So i say ok then she ask me "which movie you want to watch?" So when i was about to say ice age 3 that time she already haha we damn got muo qi then when i say if don't have how? Want to watch transformer?

Then she say i want!!! Cause a lot of people say transformer very nice to watch. So we decide to watch transformer instead of ice age 3. But then after a hour suddenly she say she want to go find her bf. Cause actually she meeting him then in the end wait for the message until 9 + and the movie starts at 10.15pm

While we are crossing the road she say very rush so i say don't know who lorz in joking way then she say sorry lahz haha then we walk very fast but luckily we are early in the end we went to play arcade awhile. After playing i didn't notice times up le luckily marilyn did notice the time then she call me. While i was playing my phone ring i thought is my mother so i ignore in the end keep ringing so i see who call me in the end is marilyn and she ask me where am i and tell me times up le. So i say ok.

Then after watching transformer really very nice!!! I almost cry because one of the robot died and he is a very good trnasformer. Then sam the main male role fight for some thing to let him to be alive again they need to keep running and some more is in the egypt!!!! So hot if is me i sure don't know how de lorz!!!!!

He almost died in the end he didn't cause the heavens of transformer say he is very good he didn't think for himself only want to save the transformer and he should go back where he belong luckily he didn't die :) After the movie end we went to the toilet but one of the cubicale got people vomit omg some more is on the floor lorz so disgusting xP so after finish washing our hands we quickly leave the toilet and we say so disgusting!!

After that we went to the interchange to take bus home and guess what!!! The intercahnge i first time see nobody de cause is already 1.15pm and first time stay till so late then i thought no more bus le cause we wait very long then luckily we manage to take the last bus :) when i reach home i go toilet wash my leg in the end my mother come out to see is my dad or me then when she saw me she say you better be careful arhz!!!

Then she say next time if want to go out you ask for my permission first if i say can then can go if i say cannot go then cannot go!!!! Great!!! So i tell marilyn haiz shit lahz wa lao xP

6 July 2009

2009-07-05T22:45:00.000-07:00

Today is a bad mood day cause today when i reach school with shi lin yun juan didn't talk to me and then when during the break they two want to go canteen buy drink but i want to stay in class then when they go le my friend ask me sit there chat with her can cause she boring so i chat lorz :)

Then chat till very long and then suddenly the 2 of them come back yun juan face turn black then after that i take my bag and everything sit with my friend then she say take lahz take lahz then anyway they want to chat what so i let them sit closer lahz................

Then chat very happy with my friend when after lesson finish they left together and didn't wait for me then i was like.........suan le then anyway my friend also taking 153 so we take together when yun juan saw us she went up the bus stairs that time she give a type of face...........

Don't know lahz didn't talk to me so i talk to my friend lahz if not very boring lorz wa lao........

2 July 2009

2009-07-01T21:17:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i just wet to meet him at bishan and i was late for 20 minutes.....then when i was at ang mo kio mrt station suddenly my handphone sot sot =_="l then when i want to message him that time cannot message so i went to bishan de library to look for him cause he say he will be waiting for me when i reach bishan message him cause he is at the library.

Then when i reach the library i quickly take out my handphone and call him to inform him that i reach le and i tell him i was outside the library. So after awhile he come out to meet me then he ask me alot of questions as in how's my studies so i say ok lorz then he say you can manage the stress mahz? Is't you stress or not feeling well cause i tell him i no voice then i say both also have.....

Then we went to S11 to sit down to have our dinner but then he say the wanton noodle and prawn noodle there not bad but then suddenly he remember i can't eat prawn due to my skin. Then suddenly he seems to can read my mind cause i feel like eating the carrot cake which he bring me to eat that time.

So i say wow you seems to can read my mind worz then he say huh really just now i ask you what you want to eat you didn't tell me so i say haha cause let you guess mahz. So he say huh wa if i very long still can't guess correct then bu shi hen chan so i say haha then we went to another coffee shop to eat the carrot cake.

I order carrot cake but he eat char chiew rice. Then when we start to eat i tell him i feel like ordering drink then he help me order x) after finish eating we went to junction 8 walk around and we look at some books and some more they on those piano music so i say hey like that half read and half listen to piano music damn relaxing lehz. So he say he at home like this de :)

But then suddenly those popular people tell us that they are closing. Then we went to other levels to walk around after walking around we went to the kiab kiab machines there and i saw elmo de i want to try with my last $1 in the end didn't caught. Then we went to arcade to see how those people catch.

One of those girl with her friend they manage to kiab the stich but in the end they didn't get haiz so ke xi. Then they keep shouting then me and him laugh xD after that we went to pasar malam to walk around we look at those toys and everything. Then when i saw someone eating tofu i thought is smelly beacurd in the end is not. When i tell him that time he thought have his keep saying have mehz have mehz? Where?

Then i say oh see wrong is fish tofu. Then when he ask me want to eat anything? I say feel like eating that tofu then he say huh very normal lehz then i say never eat before but then suddenly i say haiz too bad no money le then he buy guava and suddenly he order fish tofu :) then i say eh thank you lehz so i say i return you 40cents first then he say no need lahz like that also ji jiao mehz so he say i look like those very ji jiao de ren mehz

So i say haha almost then he say got mehz so i say just joking de lahz then suddenly he say today the wind not bad suddenly he say i bring you to my secret place when we walk the car park stairs i start to say i knew it is car park. Then when we reach he say when ever i not happy i will come here and he got tell me about last time he like a girl very much then in the end the girl like keep rejecting him cause like if with him like no secure.

Then he sad he will go there and will feel better then after that he tell me he this year then let go de. Then i tell him that recently i learn to let go also......and we chat alot and the wind is damn windy i will never forget how it feels like. And one more thing he feel happy for me that i learn to let go..............

20 June 2009

2009-06-23T03:01:00.000-07:00

Saturday went to sentosa with racheal and her friends but then suddenly my cousin came i didn't know he was her friend but then when almost everybody reach there were some changes and she don't want to go just because of a girl she can't get along with.

So after that jarret was angry and we thought he left then racheal say never mind i still got you all mahz lets go eat our lunch later we go watch movie then after ordering the food i message jarret hey you all don't like that lehz then after that he tell me to let her calm down first cause he went to cool himself so i say ok

Then when everybody reach we went t0 buy drinks cause the girl never come le in the end when we reach sentosa we went to sit down first then jarret and spider went for a swim first then i go change my clothes and me and racheal and jian kai started playing volleyball.

After that they keep asking me to go for a swim and guess what we even play monkey in the pool haha it was fun starting i didn't go cause i scared my mother will scold me cause i can't go sentosa due my illness. But i didn't care anymore because they all keep splashing at me and racheal and my shirt and pants all wet le since wet le then just play lorz

After playing we rest awhile then me and spider went to the sea there again to swim and peter also and we chat alot and we have alot of fun and we just know each other only haha then after that we is time to go we go and bath and change our clothes and my clothes got lots of sand :(

Then after that racheal and peter and jarret want to take the bus back to the station of sentosa then me jian kai spider and my cousin choose to walk when we reach they haven't reach then we go queue up for taking the train back to vivo city then after that racheal they all reach and queue up and they were just beside us but they don't know cause we didn't look at them

Finally reach vivo city le and we go eat burger king me and jian kai spider and yu xiang but guess what suddenly i saw ming hui!!!! I miss her alot man and she look abit different le without her specs and long hair then after that spider ask me you know her arhz? Cause she wave to me after that i say i don't know her at all then suddenly she say " dead xin yu you dare to say you don't know me i ming hui lehz "

After that i say oh ok ok i know le sorry cause you look different le then we chat awhile only then continue to chat with my friends they all. When is time to go they ask me to tell ming hui bye bye then i say lorz haha after that went to find racheal they all cause they eat kopitiam when we found them we walk seprately then went to take train and me and yu xiang get down together.

Finally reach home the end :)

17 June 2009

2009-06-17T05:17:00.000-07:00

Today after school went to ang mo kio hub with yun juan and shi lin cause they want me to change my hair style and dress more nicer then after that we go jean yip check the price of the hair cut then after that it was wow!! So expensive!!! And then we went to k1 salon at ang mo kio cental near the posb bank there.

Then after that we ask the guy who will be cutting my hair we ask him whether is there any suitable hairstyle for me? So after that he say if i cut abit it will be no difference whether i got cut my hair anot and then he take the magazine to let me see there is two of them so i let shi lin and yun juan see.

Then the guy waited for so long i know he is impatient already so i faster decide which hairstyle to cut then after that yun juan choose one of them which i may like so i say maybe this bahz so we tell him that hairstyle in the end it was not bad i like it and it was quite nice :)

But the person say if rebond more nicer and shi lin and yun juan also say like that but i no money so i tell shi lin and yun juan you sponsor me lahz :P then they say no money then i say then :P

but they say why not buy the rebond thing from watson and it cost $14.90 only so cheap!

Maybe i will be buying tommorow and tommorow will be going to eat ichiban sushi with yun juan cause tommorow she needs to come to ang mo kio hub to collect her contact lens. Ok here are some pictures that i take today after my hair cut :)

16 June 2009

2009-06-15T22:41:00.000-07:00

Today during mr lee lesson we chat alot and then today is a very funny day haha cause during lesson me and shi ling and yun juan keep chatting until teacher saw us then he call us to pay attention..... xD then when i say talk softer and we keep copying the notes.

Then after that i suddenly write lyrics in my book during lessons and i didn't know yun juan was looking at what i'm writting i write the lyrics " how can i live without you~ i want to know. How do i breathe without you if you ever go~ how do i ever~ ever survive~~ how do i~ how do i~ oh how do i live~~ then suddenly shi ling laugh

And i saaw her laughing then suddenly she keep laughing non stop then i say what then she keep laughing then she say wa lao why suddenlly you write lyrics then i say cannot arhz xD then she say can but you suddenly write during lessons will scare people do you know that?
So i say got mehz then yun juan was in a stunt.....

So shi ling was laughing at yun juans expression then after that i look at yun juan face it was dam scary lorz :( then when i sing the song just to entertain her she say can don't sing mahz i smack your face horz teacher teaching sing for what but just to entertain you only mahz ok lorz don't sing don't sing lorz haha xD

But shi ling was still laughing and i also laugh then when during break time we faster leave the classroom cause today too tired and want to rest early......then when we reach toa payoh me and yun juan go burger king to eat the breakfast. Then as for shi ling she go to work. Then when we finish eating we took the train then i reach ang mo kio i listen song and walk.

But then don't know why suddenly his face keep flashing in my mind haiz don't know how to forget him and i am really very depress cause in the july maybe we can meet but i don't know whether should i meet him anot cause i scared i will fall for him more than now......but if i didn't meet him i will miss him even more haiz what should i do??

I really need a new path but everything seems to be complicated to me now and right now i lost my way.........nobody can replace him and i mean by whatever he teach me and tell me or what i was wondering is there anybody would e perfect like him his face his character and his everything.......even though have but i don't think they can replace him in my heart cause even though is the same but i want the real person you know what i mean?

Ok shall stop here i feel like shouting ut where can i shout? Now can you tell i'm crazy? :'(

15 June 2009

2009-06-15T03:21:00.000-07:00

Recently will stop thinking of him well perhaps is because i'm busy or what seldom will miss him also...... well as like people say life goes on we can't keep on staying unhappy like this so i choose to be happy even though sometimes i can be emo also but then i will move forward. :)

When is time to let go so just let go this is what i learn before.. Since his happy that he got together with the girl he admire so i just have to wish him all the best and as for me carry on with my own life which is studies and friends haha xD ok shall stop here....

I was wondering if i could really create a romance story just like what uncle patrick said haha lol xD actually i did plan before :)

15 June 2009

2009-06-15T02:37:00.000-07:00

Today when i reach the bus stop where i usaully meet yun juan when i saw here her face is black i mean as in her mood is not good :( then today we didn't chat alot but when we reach our classroom we did chat about what did teacher tech last friday so i tell her cause that day she didn't go to school then we laugh cause is funny about what the teacher teach that day.

Then when shi ling reach the classroom she ask me about the two guys which my friend reco me then i tell shi ling about it cause only the two of us know what happen then when yun juan ask about what thing then i say nothing this is a secret between the two of us only haha xD

Then we continue to chat about it then durig break time yun juan go home so we follow her but at first she go alone first then when we reach bus stop we ask her why didn't wait for us then she say how i know whether you all still want to stay there anot then she say me if not i will scold her if i fail the exam cause we everytime study halfway in class.

Then from that time can tell that she is angry cause she didn't sit with us today i mean in the bus. Then when i ask her you bad mood? She say no. Then i ask then why you don't want to sit with us upstairs? Then she say don't feel like. Well then when i ask shi ling whats with her?

So shi ling say maybe we didn't tell her about the thing? Then after that i say i didn't tell of course i got my own reason right? Is because i don't want her to think that i'm flirt or what.......and i don't like when people misunderstand me so i rather not tell right?

Cause just now i tell her about what i ask my junior which is chuan kai a stupid question and that question she already misunderstand me she thought i like him i was like this -_-"l ok never mind.

So after school we went to ang mo kio hub to have our lunch but then shi ling suddenly say cannot cause her nephew is coming her nephew is more important than me then she say why not you join us? Oh and one more thing her nephew very cool as in got character normally he don't allow people to carry him but today he alow me to carry him haha xD and shi ling was shock :D

Then when is 12.05pm shi ling and her aunties and her nephew is going to her house so is time to say bye to them. Then next i am meeting chuan kai to watch Monster vs Alien oh yes!! I wanted to watch long time ago le then after that when he reach the interchage we go level 3 for lunch first but in the end he didn't eat because alot of people and al the tables were packed.

So we went to basement 2 buy other food he bought sushi to eat and i bought him a curry puff and myself too and we bought the same drink honey lemon drink from ZIP. After finish buying we go level 3 and discuss whether want to buy ticket anot cause of mei sin so i say we buy first if not if she is late we didn't buy we miss the time le so he say ok.

After buying the tickets we went to the toilet then when is time to go in we went in with the 3D specs!!! OMG i can't believe it!!! Do you know when we wear the specs the feeling is like you are really inside the movie haha is so exciting. xD

Here is a picture of me and chuan kai in the cinema omg my hair is so....... -_-"l. Then after the movie we waited for mei sin for so long in the end chuan kai got to go so i also go home next time think we won't ask her out le cause she keep ignoring us....... when i reach home chuan kai apologise to me say that sorry that today he make me so bored so i say is ok. Just got to tell myself make it a habit jiu can le

But after that i message him this time forgive you better no more next time :P then he say haha depends lorz i'll try my best so i say don't try your best is better don't haha then i ask him so next time still want to ask her out? So he say hmm you decide lorz i anything de is fine with me. So i say don't bluff haha everytime i ask you out you also will ask me ask her out de then he say no this time i didn't even contact with her lorz

So i say why so he say no why lah just never contact her lorz. haha ok ok shall stop here :)

12 June 2009 Friday

2009-06-13T23:41:00.000-07:00

Today is miss tricia ang lesso and i don't like her cause that time she ask me questions and i ignore her cause i don't know the answer well honestly speaking not only i'm the one who don't know other people also don't know the answer. Some more she ask me two times lame right? -_-"l

Then beginnning the time pass by fast but slowly in the end is not. Then when lesson end we go take bus to toa payoh and then take train to ang mo kio. After that shi ling went to meet her sister so i went to buy my lunch then i went back home. After reaching home i change my clothes and wash my leg and hands then eat my lunch while watching tv.

After that went to bathe and rest awhile and sleep. Then after that change clothes again cause me and my sister and mother and brother in law we are going for the it fair and inside got alot of people. Then after walking and deciding for very long for which laptop to buy so i finally decided to get the fujitsu laptop.

After buying the laptop my sister and brother in law call us to wait for them at the lift there cause they want to buy something. After waiting we went to the car park and my brother in law drive us go block 232 for dinner after dinner he came to our house to help me set up my laptop.

So happy finally i get my laptop :)

31/05/09

2009-05-31T01:42:00.000-07:00

Recently the wheather is dam hot and our air-con is not working and got to use fan but luckily i still can sleep. But then in the end today my bastard father ask his friend to help to repair finally yhe air-con work very cooling :)

Ok erm back to my life time stories..... recently will be thinking about him like yesterday and those photos i put in my facebook my friends will ask me this question "you emo arhz?" so i say ya....recently will think about him and he seems to be different to me now and he seems to be avoiding me :(

so hongmei say "can tell that you miss him alot" ya i did and i really miss the days we were together....yesterday chat with patrick on msn he also can tell so we chat quite alot alot our love stories..... like as in i miss him and then he tell me take things natural bahz then when we chat about him he ask when will my fate come so i send him this sentence also "take this natuaral bahz" so he say he know xD

to him:

I really miss you alot you know mahz? And i was wondering are you avoiding me? I hope won't be true and i hope that is i think too much i really really really want to tell you alot of things even though i can see openly now is all thanks to you cause you make me grow up to be more understanding.

自从你离开了以后我的生活变的空洞是否是我不够温柔离开也不想告诉我为何你要走不爱的理由早知道这画面会让人崩溃最后还是选择让你飞不要让我难过不要流泪我请愿给你一双翅膀找永远至少可以好好享受我的体贴明天起我会消失在你两人之间不要让我难过不要告别我请愿躲在角落假装看不见你的双眼看得我心碎成一片让我消失在两人之间~

每一分每一秒每一天每一夜每一月每一年都无法忘记你我的生活是因你而改变的很感激你的一切

26 May 2009

2009-05-25T20:32:00.000-07:00

Well erm actually i change the previous song to this song is because got meanings and reasons of course well ok is because of the song title.....which is let you fly this song is almost the same as my story.

I choose to let you fly because i want you to be happy i even though i can't forget you but i still treat you as my brother but i don't know whether now you still treat me as your sister anot...i hope things will be the same like how it use to be like last time....the way we chat and everything

Just owe you an confess and i really can't forget about it i really don't know what should i do......

memories~

2009-05-22T21:50:00.000-07:00

Recently will be thinking of you even though you have a gf already i will wish you happiness.... People say if you love the person you wish that person will be happy. Well it seems like i have look openly already as life goes on.

Well even though i was still thinking of you we can't meet i still can chat with you at the phone is already enough. Just want to let you know even though we can't be together but whenever you need a shoulder i'll be there for you and i'll always be your angel :)

Even though where ever i go and when ever what i do i still can't forget you and i won't cause you are the one who make my life different from last time as in i'm willing to change everything for you...even though i wish you happiness but i will still wait for you.

22-05-09

2009-05-22T08:06:00.000-07:00

Today just went out with chuan kai and mei sin awhile. Then when we meet each other that time mei sin keep talking on the phone so me and chuan kai disturb her...then we go mac for dinner and she is still on the phone.

Then when we were eating we crap and joke alot and mei sin tell us that she is meeting her friend at 8.30 for studying together with her friends. Then when we left mac suddenly she saw her friend and chat very long.

Then we walk to amk hub then i say want to go j8? Cause i want to buy a clothes from cotton on. So we go just as we were about to enter to tap the card suddenly her friend come along and follow her and keep telling her to leave wth....

Then suddenly mei sin tell us hey sorry lehz aiyo if i left with you guys they sure angry if i left with them they sure angry. Then i say you don't forget horz the 3 of us we rarely can meet each other you always meet your friends for study can't you tell your friends next time then they meet?

So suddenly her friend shout at her CHUA MEI SIN!! and she keep saying at mei sin.....then mei sin keep apologising to us then i am totally pissed off with her already the friend suddenly come to her while we were looking at her her friend told us bye! And quickly pull her away!! WTH i was totally pissed off lorz!!!! The friend dam no manners lorz and she tell her friends that they will be meeting them at 8.30 and now is only 7.30 !!!!!

So i was angry then chuan kai say aiyo if she like that then forget it lorz if she don't call us or msg us we also don't and she also owe us an apology so i say ya and her friend also lorz!! Then we just go ahead and when we finish buying my clothes we go back amk hub and play arcade play the basketball machine and hammer and racing!!! Fun man even though i'm angry!! Thanks chuan kai and i accompany him for waiting for the bus and we chat alot too!! xD

6 May 2009

2009-05-06T22:43:00.000-07:00

Today is a very miserable and depressed day for me as during the night at 8+ i message kit my brother that did he turn into a gay? While i mean as a joke so the reply was

kit: no worries shu shu have gf le so i'm considered normal le bahz??

me: huh really? since when you got a gf? how come i didn't know?

kit: well it started 1 week ago only not alot of friends know.

me: oh the girl that you admired finally accept you le arhz?

kit: oh different girl lah

me: huh? how come? but then i thought you admire the girl very long le?

kit: the girl i admire she don't like me as you know love cannot be force.... then this girl i know from taka i don't think you know her

me: then who is the one who confess first?

kit: of course i confess loh i haven't met any girl who is so brave wor

me: haha then you like her? haha i'm one of the brave girl

kit: yupe i like her character in some sense and oh you got confess to guy before mah?

me: no actually wanted too but its too late then what type is her character?

kit: why too late lay? she ar? quite mature and know how to take care of herself and she is kind and quite cheerful too....

me: well he same as you lorz he just got a gf....

kit: huh really? what type of character is he?

me: ya indeed.... almost same like you he is very cheerful to everyone btw how come you say at first your gf don't like you in the end she accept you? btw how old is she?

kit: she accept me after a few days later after i confess loh ...she older than me 1 years old loh

me: huh but you don't find a age younger than you de mahz?

kit: huh i don't mind that ar not a problem to me

me: If before you stead with you gf a girl confess to you will you accept her?

kit: must depend lohz but mostly no bahz

me: how come no?

kit: must depend whether got feeling de mahz

me: oh ok well wish you happiness

kit: thank you

me: next time when we meet must bring her along i want to see how my da sao looks like haha's jk =D

kit: ok hao ar we just get together 1 week ago de ;-)

me: ok its a deal then!

kit: yupp hey chat with you later got to go work le

me: ok

Are you really a silly or you are just pretending that you really don't know? Do you know i like you since we were close? Do you know i really like you? Why you just give me a sudden break down? Why you can't let me got prepared? I told myself many times try to understand your situation and feelings even though my friends wanted to scold you? I told myself to understand your problems but have you ever think for me?

I thought we could be together and i told myself not to think too much but i can't! Everytime i close my eyes where ever i go i always think of your face? Where ever i go i miss you alot even though i tell myself to control myself but i can't! I wanted to confess to you but i tell myself that time is not a good situation

Why did you do this to me? Do you know how heartbroken i am? I put all my hopes on you and you just stab a knife in my heart without any warning why you want to treat me so good? i told myself we are just friends but i still in the end can't control in the end i like you do you know i feel sad for you when you told me your past story about you and your admirer?

I don't know whether should i forgive you or should i hate you now i lost my path and everything
i'm not blaming you is just that it happens too suddenly do you know how hurtful i am? This time my pain is ten thousand times more than that time i fall for jh!

Have you ever think for me? Why? Why are you treating me like this? I want to know in your heart who am i? Or am i a nothing to you have you ever treat me as your sister? All my friends don't like you but i told myself to ignore them cause i trust you in the end you just stab a knife in my heart....

14/4/09

2009-04-14T04:43:00.000-07:00

Today when we were in school before lesson starts the lesson is very boring de so i entertain them as they are very tired then after that i sing a sentence peng you yi shen yi qi zou in cantonese. Then they were wondering what song am i singing so i sing again then in the end they got what i mean so they say so old de song.

Haha's then after that lesson start then we keep chatting i mean awhile during lessons. Then after that we play hang man and shi ling very clever :(. Then after school le the guy we talking about which is 2 tables infront he let me walk first omg such a gentlemen :) i like this type of man.

Then they keep saying i happy or what then is time to go amk so we take bus to toa payoh and then take train to amk so after that we wait for yun juan's nephew and aunty to eat with us so i order my food first when they arrive they go order their food. Then after that i start eating and her nephew is so cute!!!

At first he keep looking at me then after that i look at him and smile he was afraid of me :( but.....when we go fairprice i got an idea i buy chocolate for him kinder surprise then after that we walk and walk then after that i want to buy tibits then he keep calling jie jie jie jie....xinyu jie jie so i was happy xD then in the end when want to make payment i saw jane......we look at each other very long then we go other cashier make payment.

When is time to go her nephew say bye bye to me :)

13/4/09

2009-04-13T00:30:00.000-07:00

Today i late cause suppose to meet at 7.30 in the end i'm late cause i wake up late abit.....then when we reach bus stop we take bus as there were too many people in the bus. But we manage to find our seats. Then we sit and we chat chat chat all the way to school.

When we reach the school is 8.00am then we sit at our place. Then we chat until teacher come we still chat chat chat but also got listen lahz haha's then we listen and chat and write and our hands turn into lemon cause alots of words..... so finish copying we chat again and i'm always the one who entertain them haha's xD

But then chat till halfway break le finally can rest. Then i siaoz haha's then they also say i siaoz i didn't eat my medicine haha's so i say ya xD then after that lessons continue :( when the teacher teaching they very tired and abit sleepy so i entertain them make them laugh shi ling also haha's.

Then around 11+ lesson going to finish that time the girl which is the middle front of the class she look at us and say shh!!! Then i was wondering did i see wrong or what?? So in the end i was right cause yun juan tell me that she keep looking at us and say we very noisy. So i was wondering maybe is because of my voice :(

Then when yun juan say and shi ling say so i say aiya never mind lahz duo yi shi bu ru shao yi shi. But i know the girl she's from taka last time we work at the same fair is just that she's a promoter and i'm the cashier. But i don't really like her......and she's a les!!!

So after about what they say that girl go tell her friend and the friend look at us. Like exist she didn't talk like that!! Everybody got the right to talk right?? I didn't mean i have no wrong my wrong is my voice. Cause we laugh until very funny can't control.....ok ok then after lesson we left the school and take bus back to toa payoh me and yun juan went for lunch together shi ling go meet her mother.

Then we eat our lunch after eating we go popular to search for the book that teacher call us to buy but we can't find.....then after that we decide tommorow then go to the school bookshop to buy. After that i saw the ear piece that i like i feel like buying but when i tell mummy about it she say save your money lahz later then buy lahz....and she spoil my mood of buying it then yun juan ask me you don't want to buy arhz?

So i say my mood being spoil by my mum still got the mood to buy mehz....then she laugh so i say anyway i also planning to save my money now cause i want to buy alot of things.....then we take train and sing song abit and say that next time we go kbox. Then after that train come le i take until amk i go deposit my money to my bank account after that i take bus home :)

9/4/09

2009-04-08T23:42:00.000-07:00

Today meet yun juan for breakfast and we eat our breakfast at toa payoh macdonald i order sausage mac muffin with egg and her's is without egg. Oh forget to say mine is set got hash brown and tea. Then i tell the auntie the tea don't so hot then she give me ice.....so i put in abit.

Then we faster eat then we go to the bus stop to wait for shi ling and the bus to arrive but by the time she reach the bus already go le so no choice got to wait for another bus. Then they were saying they don't want to attend the workshop after lesson cause very tired.

So i angry cause attendance is important and i scared will affect the exam. Then i angry they keep comforting me until yun juan very angry.Yesterday i was worrying will anything happen to us will it happen to me and yun juan between how me and jane quarrel like last time like that?. Then in the end what i'm worried of really happen....

Then i angry with her until i got abit fever....feel like vomiting at stomach pain. Then after that we calm down awhile during lesson then when break time we go toilet together then we finally talk to each other again.After that lesson continue but the teacher very boring so we play hang man until end of lesson but we half play half listen of course!

Then when lesson end we suppose to have workshop to attend but they don't want to attend because they are very tired i also tired but i'm worried for our exams everything cause teacher say if we didn't attend we can't sit for exam and can't take cert. Thats why i'm scared.

Ok then we did quarrel just because of this thing.....and everything is like i blame on them like they say arhz!!!!! Just like my father idiot father! Then we go toa payoh take train after that we go ang mo kio to take the mc but after that must wait till 2.00 then we go hawker centre to have our lunch then hongmei ask me want to go bugis with her so i say ok....

But after that she reach she ask me where am i so i say i at hawker centre for lunch then she say huh cannot lahz i can't go out cause serene waiting for me then she say next time then i go out with you lahz so i say ok lorz.......

Then after that continue eating then yun juan suddenly got something on need to go back so i say ok then in the end we didn't go see doctor cause i say hmm don't need go take mc le.....then we go back home by bus at ang mo kio hub.

04/04/09

2009-04-04T05:43:00.000-07:00

Today wake up early in the morning at 7.00am cause my mother ask me go jogging with her but as you all know i'm lazy so i keep on don't want to go cause yesterday i sleep at 12.00am. But then i say unless you can pull me out from the bed then i go with you i thought my mum can't do it.

So she say you sure i can't? :) So i say you can't xD so she pull me pull until very long then in the end i lose :( cause i say unless i lose then i go with you well in the end i did go. Then when we jog finish for the first round i thought already finish then my mum still going for the 2nd round so i was like this :0 omg so tiring but no choice still got to go if not i'll be lost.

After finish the 2nd round my mum still want to go for the 3rd round so i tell her mummy can we go? So she say 1 more round lahz anyway already jog for 2 round le but i was very tired so we didn't go for the 3rd round. After that we go blk 133 for our breakfast. I eat fishball soup bee tai mak. The fishball was so hard to eat and got abit sour so i didn't finish the fishballs :(

Then my mum eat carrot cake. After finish eating our breakfast we go home then my mum bathe first then i sit down on the fan. After that is my turn to bathe then my sister ask my mum you didn't go market mehz? So she say no cause i thought you will go but in the end my sister say ask her go lahz which is me.....so i started to say don't want!

So she stare at me so i say i got go jogging you got go mahz??!! Then my mum say don't quarrel lahz since you all don't want to go then don't go lahz as my mum was angry....so i say my sister you can't accompany her is't?? So she threaten me she say you don't want to go then don't eat! So i say don't eat then don't eat anyway i never eat i also won't die! Then i go bathe in the end they go market together.

Then when they came back they bought breakfast. So that time i finish sweeping the floor so i sleep awhile but that time was so tired i sleep till 1.00pm then my mum was angry cause i keep sleeping but that time i was so tired she don't know......ok never mind......so i wake up already i go wash my clothes.

After washing i go eat my lunch nasi lemak. Then finish eating i watch tv awhile then i go wash the basin as my mum order me to do it and 1 more thing i hate people ordering me around as i was saying only in the house which is my mum and sis! Their pattern was the same only know how to order don't know how to do i mean my sister....

When i finish washing the basin ok back to watch tv then my mum came back from ang mo kio hub after she came back home for lunch. Then she ask me to do this do that.....ok in the end i still do :(

02/04/2009

2009-04-02T03:00:00.000-07:00

Today just went out to watch movie with yun juan and the movie is call L-O-V-E. Before watching i reach first and we meet at amk hub. Then since i reach first so i go deposit my money to my account. After that i go meet her and we go buy tickets first.

After buying the ticket we went to toast box to have our lunch. She order mee siam and i order nasi lemak. So while eating we chat and then is like yun juan say i very dan chun well actually is true......i won't deny.

Then finish eating we go to the cinema to watch the show as our movie starts at 1.00pm and then the seats we choose is couple seats and i didn't seat before.Then after that the movie got four chapters. And the last chapter is dam funny haha's xD the female lead of the last chapter is the female lead of lan qiu huo!

She act very good! Then after the movie we went to the arcade to play kiab kiab awhile. Then after that Yun juan say very sianz so she want to go home so i say so early? Huh i very sianz lehz don't feel like going home as i'm having mood swings.... as today i don't have any mood but i don't know why.

Then we decide very long until she keep rushing me so she insist to go home so in that case i was so fustrated so i say go home lahz go home lahz so she say really mahz so i say go home lahz. Then from that onwards i notice i flare up at her omg i seldom do this to anyone.So i sms her say sorry......as i don't know whats going on with me....

Maybe is because of him or myself? I don't know. I just don't know whats going on with me today.....

27/03/09

2009-03-28T04:50:00.000-07:00

Today i went out with him and i was wondering is this another coincidence? When i reach yishun i want to top up my card suddenly i saw him and he didn't see me so i tap him. Then we went to the cinema there to buy tickets after buying the tickets of the show call detriot metal city we went to comics connection to walk awhile.

Then i play with one of the toy the li xiao long weapon haha's then he say aiyo wa really play with it then i say play for fun only haha's can beat you also then he say wa beat me haha's so i beat him on his hand but is not pain at all because is softtoy like that haha's xD.

So we went to the shooping centre we walk around and joke with me his language is indian so i say haha's very funny then he keep laughing. So after joking we went to the libaray and the boy gave out those paper write that student got discount i mean at the cafe. So after he take the paper he joke with me he tell me hey we are still students we are still 16 haha's so i say ya ya haha's.

Then after so long then he realize that he speak until so loud then i say now then you know arhz i whisper to him and he whisper too then he say ya lorz so embarrassing xD so we take a book and read he take out two book and one of them is about movie another one is about mountains and nature.

So we look at those two books first then he ask me whether i know this movie so i say nope not my year. Then i only know the ask hahas'. So he say huh you don't know worz then after finish looking at the movie book we look at the nature and mountain book. So he say i want to learn how to be a photographer and learn art and another thing i realize he got the same thing as me which is i also want to learn how to take pictures and i love art.

So i say eh same with me. Then we look at the pictures and say wow so beautiful and alot of the mountain is ice mountains so he joke with me ice mountain the japanese hawker centre got sell. So i say haha's. Then we keep looking until autum picture i say your favourite so he ask me how you know? So i reply cause your friendster you put alot of nature pictures i mean plants.

Then he say oh...then we continue looking ok time to go and eat so we went to eat. After finish eating we went to the cinema toilet and then after finish going to the toilet we go in the cinema together and then we watch the movie. At first i didn't know what movie was that until the advertisement show i ask him is't this? So he ask me oh you don't know what movie i want to watch? So i smile only :(

Then when the movie started is very funny cause the guy behave like a girl he likes to sing and his dream is to become a singer in a band but when he take his own song which he create his own he give to "no music no dream" company he did got in to be a band but is not his type and he keep telling the boss until the boss so angry she took her cigeratte and throw at his face ouch! So pain cause the cigratte has been lighted anyway you all go watch this show cause is very funny is at gv!

During the movie we kept laughing and alot of people laugh until the movie finish we were still laughing.Then we went to pasar malam to walk awhile and i bought alot of food for me and my sister. Then he want to eat otah and sunddenly he ask me you want me to buy for you? So i say well if you want to :) so he ask me how many i want? 1 is 30cents 10 is $3 but i thought got 3 for $1 so he say wa then i think must buy 10 for you liaoz haha's

So he ask me how many you want :) so i say 3 then i'm so happy but i just don't understand how did he feel?? Cause after we finish walking we went to cross the road to the shopping mall but then while we were crossing suddenly a lorry came quite fast then it nearly bang me so he quickly put his hand on my back i think on my waist or shoulder then he keep saying "don't know how this driver drive the car!"

So i was quite shock the eyes in him is like very concern about me or maybe i'm thinking too much i also don't know so he say sorry.So i say is ok :) When we reach the shopping centre he ask me want to see pets?? So i say ok cause before that i was explaining about the movie hotel for dogs to him. And he ask me you watch already arhz? So say yes so i keep explaining.

Then we went to look at the disc first before we look at the pets. 1 of the disc is horror movie he ask me you know this movie? So i say nope so he keep saying you really don't know? So i say nope and he started to explain until he refresh my mind haha so i say oh oh oh i remember le then he keep saying haha's then he say at first i don't remember de until i look i remember le.

Then after we finish looking we went to look at the hamsters so i say so cute and he agree too then i say last time i got a hamster but when i carry her she bite me but when my mum carry her she won't bite her. Then he say you carry her in a not comfortable way is't? So i say maybe and he say when you carry they will poo or pee on your hand haha's. So i laugh.

Then we took the train and got seat he say wa so tired then i'm sad he look at me and ask me why sad? So i say i don't know whether next time can we still able to meet so he say maybe yes maybe not who knows what will happen to the future? So i say hmm then he ask me don't think so much so i say for you sure won't think so much cause for you is small matter never mind take it as i didn't say anything.

And he really take it as nothing happen!! Haiz don't know whether will anything hap[pen to us in the future i mean whether will we be in a relationship anot......i think no bahz........but my friend think he like me so i say impossible if he really like he will give his admirer flowers and presents then she keep asking me go think if not why he hold at my waist so i say i think is shoulder there cause he that time frighten me.

But i hope what my friend say is true......... haiz.................

27/03/09

2009-03-26T21:13:00.000-07:00

Today later i'll be going out with him well the him is who?? Only those who knows him then they know who is it haha's lame right?? xD Ok back to the straight point. Later i will be meeting him at yishun cause we will be watching movie and walking around chong pang.

So later i don't know what will happen but i hope what i wish for will happen.... :) well maybe you think i'm selfish but i really hope that day will happen......actually i really wish i can bake him a cake for his birthday. But didn't manage to bake well haiz....

I really hope he will be touch one day :( never mind no matter what i will still wait for you. I think i'm starting to understand him better like that time i think he like to eat mango so i ask him so indeed he say yes he love mango :) now i think he like to watch japanese movie :)

Later i will ask him if he say yes i will be happy haha's xD.

"But happy for what?? Ho Xin Yu you wake up bahz he won't like you de he already like the girl for 3 year + le you think he will die heart for the girl mehz?? don't be silly le lahz xin yu arhz you give up on him bahz......"

But i can't what can i do?? I really miss him sometimes i mean suddenly sometime i will miss him. Can you imagine i 2 months didn't see him i miss him that much?? Oh my god i already told myself not to like him but i can't do it. I mean the more nicer he treat me the more i will like him. Well maybe i think he still like her but actually he doesn't know he has already like me??

Oh come on xin yu don't be that thick skin face ok!! Then what?? I really don't have the courage to know the truth i hope my future bf can be him :( haiz what to do i really hope i don't know anything about love i really hope i'm still a kid but thats impossible you can only act as a kid but i can't people will find it irritating.

Life is miserable.................

26/03/09

2009-03-26T06:27:00.000-07:00

Today went out with yun juan but i reach early so i went to the cinema to buy the tickets first. After buying so i went to meet her after that we went to the face shop she went to buy nail polisher. Then i heard about the news i was shock!

Erm all readers: according to the shock news i can't tell cause is a secret between me and her. So hope everybody understand the situation thank you for your cooperation :).

So we went to shop awhile since the movie start at 6.05 so we went to the arcade to see how the people play the kiab kiab. Then after that we went to the toilet and went to the cinema. The show finally started and the movie is hotel for dogs! Is a quite funny and touching movie and this is the 2nd time i watch!! 1st time i watch with marilyn and this time with yun juan!

Both of them are just like my ears! Then the movie near to the ending part is very touching go watch!! Is worth for you to watch many times! So after the movie we went to toilet again. After going to toilet yun juan say she can't eat dinner together with me cause she is meeting daniel. So she keep saying sorry so i say never mind.

So i called my sister hongmei and him for a chat then halfway chat halfway take bus after reaching my house bus stop i went to buy my dinner i buy cai fan. Todays dinner not quite nice don't know why. Maybe no appetite bahz.....eat abit only after that my stupid dad of mine bought hokkien noodles.

So he share with me. Then he say you now got the chance you better coopearate with me if not i leave this house you don't beg me and i will take revenge!! What the hell i knew it!! My mum shouldn't forgive him!! Change your head!! But what can i do?? Due to my mums health she must always stay happy thats why she got no choice to forgive him first!!

Although i'm still a child i shoudn't interefere their problems but i'm her daughter also! Alot of people don't understand when ever they ask this question" how much did your dad give you for your allowance??" So i say $10 per day. So they say " so good!!" so i smile only......my heart was saying "good?? whats the point of a father who doesn't care about his children and each day only give $10?? can money buy relationship?? I mean father daughter relationship of course!!"

I was wondering why i got a father like this!!

Readers take note!! :

IF ANYTHING HAPPEN TO ME I GET KILLED BY MY FATHER PLEASE TELL THE LAWYERS WHICH MY MOTHER CALLED FOR!! TELL THOSE OFFICERS THAT HE WE GOT KNOT!!

26/03/09

2009-03-26T01:12:00.000-07:00

Left 2 week and 1 day for going to school. Feeling excited but then when today my best friend yun juan tell me and ask me she say "xin yu what happen if i suddenly didn't study will you be angry??" So i was wondering why suddenly she tell me this....

My heart was saying of course i will get angry what happen your if turns out to be true?? And what happen it turns out to be true like that time ite like that and of course i hope it won't turn out to be true she also hope it won't turns out to be true. So i ask her what happen actually??

She keep telling me that she can't tell so i guess does it got to be involved with daniel?? So she say zzz... then i ask her family?? So she say both so i guess and ask you pregnant arhz?? So she say no lahz then i ask is'it you want to get married?? So she say no.

But the way she describe is like pregnant lorz......so i was quite worried i worried because we promise to study together and the fees is dam ex!! Then i'm quite worried i hope it won't turn out to be true and no matter how i force her to tell she say cannot!! When confirmed liaoz then tell you........ so i would like to ask everybody the way she tell me does it sound like she is pregnant??

She can tell me in a different way right?? Never mind...

14/03/09

2009-03-16T23:51:00.000-07:00

Today wake up at 5+ in the morning to accompany my mother to thomson medical centre for her small operation to remove her tumor... and then my sister also got go. Then my big uncle fetch us go there. We wait for a long time about 2 hours then the operation start.

So when my mum go for the operation me and my sister go for our breakfast we eat at novena square 2 there the wang cafe we order laksa and teh c. The teh c quite nice the laksa so so only haha's.

Then we went back there to see how's our mother so when we reach there we read our magazines. And finally she wake up. So next we just have to wait for the doctor. while waiting my sister borrow my ipod nano and psp and me sleeping....

After waiting for few hours for the doctor finally we can go make payment and go back le. My sister husband fetch us back. After that we went to buy our lunch and when we reach home i'm, the 1st 1 to bathe cause i'm tired. Then after bathing finish i go eat my lunch and sleep cause too tired and i only sleep for 15 minutes. After that i go my cousin house.

Too learn how to bake a mango cake for him i hope before his birthday reach i hope i know how to bake the cake le but i think is impossible de cause is very hard. And i don't think he will be touch bahz...

When i at my cousin house my aunt ask me to wait cause she busy then i wait for her. After waiting she say ok already and ask me whether want to stay here for dinner so i say but....then she say never mind lahz is own people so i say ok then. And the food is quite nice and the xi yang cai soup got longan. Although is weird but is still quite nice. :) After when i reach home i eat the porridge that my mum cook.

After that i watch the show ai jiu zai yi qi. After watching i went to bed immediatly as i was too tired haha's xD

13-03-09

2009-03-13T06:21:00.000-07:00

Today my mother suppose to go kkh for her small operation but when i in the bus that time then she tell me that she didn't go!! Then i angry le if you were me you will also get angry right!! Then she say sorry.

Then i went to braddel to meet her and my small aunt. And we had lunch together after that they chat until 2+ then we go our separate ways of course i follow my mum. We went to city hall there cause for my mum's health she needs to sleep the healthy mattress.

Then the auntie there say my skin got problem and alot more and let me see my blood cells and she say my blood cells is unhealthy cells not good so she say i should avoid eating fried food like fast food and alot more. I shouldn't eat sweet things and salty things. And i can't eat spicy stuffs. So sad..... :'( then she say after two months she wants to see my skin and cells improve.

After that my mum buy those capsules that the auntie recommend me to eat and she buy the soap that she recommend. Then my mother buy for me and i will see wether there's improvement anot. :) Hope there's improvement. And yesterday the doctor say my mum don't have cancer but there's 30% of risk that she might have.

And tommorow my mum going for the small operation hmm quite worried even though is small operation.....

Dear father dear lord:

I sincerly thank you for helping me to bless my mother that she didn't have cancer although. But still i sincerly beg you please help me bless my mother that tommorow her small operation is fine. Thank you father.

Oh and today i bought a bag from ink which i have aim for a long time. So happy that i got the bag and thanks alot to my mother :)

04/03/09

2009-03-06T06:44:00.000-08:00

Today went to meet marilyn at my house downstair then after that i help her to carry her things cause her wrist is pain and she can't carry too heavy things. Then we went to blk 133 for my lunch and we order carrot cake. Marilyn order white and mine is black. After finish eating we went to amk hub to deliver her things. Then i saw jane but i didn't talk to her as what have happen....

Then after finish eating we went to level 2 the shop funzcentre. Actually marilyn wanted to buy the psp skin but in the end she didn't buy she only buy the screen protector , the crystal psp protector and the psp protector. After finish buying we went to walk around then i suggest to marilyn why not we go takashimaya to visit shirley and peck yoon they all??

Actually she don't want but i say she miss us then she say got mehz?? So i say don't belive i show you the message so she say but the message only write miss you didn't miss me. So i say never mind lahz just go lahz. Then after we reach taka we go toilet 1st then marilyn tie hair until so long for 30 minutes. Then finally we go their counter i'm so excited to see shirley. xD

Yes and finally we reach their counter and we saw amy and jessie. When amy saw me and marilyn she was abit surprise and ask how are we so we say ok lorz :) then when jessie is back she saw us and keep talking to us after marilyn give them the mr bean coupons. Then jessie keep looking at it. The she want the key chain so she at 1st say amy you help me foot.

Then amy say again me?? Then she laugh she foot out by herself. Then we keep chatting when got customer amy go serve and then jessie keep chatting to us and we also laugh cause they two so long didn't disturb me then they say sorry arhz so long didn't see you thats why must disturb you and beat you so i laugh xD.

Then i message shirley and wait for her so long to come down finally she reply my message and i saw her feet and i pretend i didn't see her then i say aiyo scared me xD then she say you didn't change at all so i ask as in?? She say my character hahaz then marilyn tell her i feel excited when i see her then she say i know cause she got message me.

But she was too busy. We only chat awhile. Then she need to go already and i knew it so marilyn tell me lets go!! Ok then we went to buy tako pochi we order 5 boxesand we buy the japanese traditional soda the bottle is marble type!! When i was small i only drink 1 time!! Then marilyn come my house cause she want to install some of my games to her psp but cannot.

Then we watch tv until 1+ then she go home. And i also teach her how to take picture haha'ss xD.

25/02/2009

2009-02-25T22:25:00.000-08:00

Today went out with Yun Juan. So we meet each other at AMK mrt station. Then she know i'm sad because of my mother.......so she keep comforting me ask me not to worry and she won't got cancer de.....

Thanks for your comfort Yun Juan but i'm really scared :'( I really hope nothing will happen to her. Next before we enter the train we sit awhile first. Then she tell me maybe shi ling never study with us le so i was surprise and ask why. So yun juan say cause she say her mother de money her brother take le and carol tell her to ask her is the module different carol keep asking her to check carefully is like she is stopping her to study what the ....!!!

I was like dam angry lorz we can finally persuade her to go study for a diploma cert now you stop her from doing that what type of friend are you??!! Then yun juan say she gotm tell carol that she studying with me then yun juan say " i think she is jealous of you everyone of us go study with you and she despise you cause of michelle and her thing.... thats why she ask shi ling to check carefully...."

When in the train i didn't talk much cause as like what she say i'm worried. So she say hey why didn't chat?? You didn't chat with me i very sianz lehz..... then she play with her brother's psp. Then when we reach mdis we sit awhile while waiting for the receipt. Then when we were sitting i keep saying about carol and yun juan say i shouldn't tell michelle what they say about her. Ok i'm in the wrong at this but they also shouldn't ba wo tuo xia shui!!

And my heart was saying actually i didn't say everything out i only say 20% of it ok...... never mind but even though she don't like me she also shouldn't stop shi ling for studying and this matter is only between the two of us right!!! She is so unreasonable!!! And exist i like her like that!!! She didn't ask herself how she and ivy treat me!!! SHIT YOU......

And i was dam angry with carol!!! Whatever. I don't feel like caring about it anymore!!! Whatever you think is none of my business and stop being so childish!!! Then after taking the receipt we went to plaza singapura for lunch at yoshinoya and it totally spoil my mood!!! And i didn't even finish eating arhz!! Never mind so we went for a walk at daiso after shopping for so long we went to take train.

And yun juan forget to buy stickers so we went to amk hub minitoons to buy the stickers. Then she keep saying me so pro for pulling the stickers. Then i bought a keyboard duster is small size one so cute!! Then we shop around cause is raining then we saw artist fliming at level 4 then i insist to watch is felicia chin actually i'm not sure whether is't anot hahaz xD.

Then we went to level 1 yun juan bought a tube so i accompany her after finish buying she went to the umbrella shop to buy a umbrella then i went to take bus to go back home hahaz xD. Then she went to take train. And yesterday the thunder was dam loud!! It scares me. Then when i reach home i start to prepare the vegetables while listening to my ipod.

Thats all about today....

School days are coming!!

2009-02-22T22:43:00.000-08:00

Yeah i'm feeling excited and happy and at the same time stress also lahz....cause i'm studying the course mis international business course at mdis. Happy cause can study with my friends together again. Excited is because finally can study again. Well for stress is mainly because between 8 months time must study very hard and my mum insist that i must get the diploma cert and is her money.

Somemore mainly her health i'm worried i can't let her down. If not i won't forgive myself......i'm not a filial child. But i believe if me and my friends we three work hard together we can get the cert. We start school at 6 april. Well scared and worried......can't think what will happen......

2nd mainly for him......

: Well i don't know how are you now and how are you feeling but i really hope our relations is not just brother and sister only i hope we can be more than brother and sisters...... well don't blame me for treating you abit cold cause i can't let you know i like you cause i know what will happen as i mean i know what will the answer be means rejected.......

I don't ask for that much really but among all guys you are the only guy who treats me good. :')
I'm starting to like you and miss you more............i hope in the future we can be together. I won't die heart yet. I really hope when the two of us were together i can make you happy but i just don't know how to and you don't want to let me know what you like and don't like. Well as i know the reason why is because you still like her that much.........

20 February 2009

2009-02-22T22:08:00.000-08:00

Today i went out with yun juan and daniel.b Before daniel came me and yun juan went to amk hub and we had our dinner at new york new york. We both eat spaghetti. Well mine is quite oily yucks....but is quite nice too then while waiting for mr daniel the waitress keep asking how many person are we waiting that means the waitress needs the chair and table for other customers.

So i tell yun juan faster call him. Finally he arrive then when he arrive his face was black...and yun juan starts to scold him. And both start to argue so i say enough don't argue liaoz.....then i ask daniel whether he love her anot so he say of course. So i say but yesterday i heard somthing happen....you open the clover puzzle and where got a bf like that de even though is not nice.

Is still a effort of her's right?? Then he say cause there's a hole there. So i say whatever but whatever i tell you or say you you don't have to scold her cause i care about my friends and is my idea to say you. But my heart say i dare you bully her you see what i do xP.

Then when we finish eating we went to walk walk and shop then we went to arcade and play kiab kiab. And thats my happiest day ever cause everytime i play i didn't kiab anything but today was the luckiest day ever. I spend about $25+ to $30 and i manage to kiab 3 softtoys that i like. Hahaz then i keep changing the money cause alot of times didn't mange to catch but thanks to yun juan she teach me how to catch thats why i can manage to caught 3.

Then she say finally you get it!! Then alot of people keep looking at me and then theres a les couple the girl say i can't catch the other one say i can then i didn't :( but in the end got three then the couple was still there the girl look into my bag hahaz bet she saw uit xD....

Then we went to minitoons to see see after that we went to eat toast box. i order set a omg!! Going to be fat again haiz actually 60kg now back again arhz!!!! then finish eating i take bus went back home.

19 february 2009

2009-02-18T22:49:00.000-08:00

Well actually i was abit sorry that i throw temper as i know i was in the wrong but why will i say that is because theres pressure since i can get to study as you know i wasn't very clever......this time i will say i'm stupid. And my mother tell me her breast there got something and actually i really care about her and im worried.

To my mother:

Well mummy i didn't really mean to hurt you or what is just that i'm having pressure as you can't tell and actually i am really worried about you and hope you won't have tumor as you tell me about it....i was really sad about it and you should know who i'm really close to this family the one i'm very close to is you after since the way you treat me im really very sad..... hope you will be fine hope nothing will happen to you i'm sorry mummy :'(

Dear lord can you please don't take my mum away i already got a father who treats me not very good i didn't mean to hurt my mum. :'(

18 february 2009

2009-02-18T22:31:00.000-08:00

Today night just quarrel with my mother cause i tell yun juan about what my mother scold me and say me during 16 feb. Then suddenly my mother came in and look at me and start to say me you ask yourself lahz!! And she keep saying i at home do nothing and the three of us is working. You only at home do what play comp!!

So i say i where got play comp i'm watching shows not play ok!! Before you didn't know the facts don't anyhow say!!! You everytime didn't make the facts right then you say me i also haven't say you back ok!!! Then she say when you got money also didn't give me and only buy your own things!!

So i ask her back exist you will buy me the things like that!!! When i ask you buy you say when you work by yourself you use your own money to buy!!! That time you say this i use my own money to buy got wrong is't?? Then i also got give you $200 ok you dare to say i didn't give you money!! Even though i lend from you next time i work i will return you right!!

And i tell yun juan i thought how good is my mother thought she help me foot those bills and everything and course fees she won't ask me back for the money so quickly. Then she started to say if i'm not good why i help you to pay the school fees first so i say ya i'm very thankful to you that you volunteer to help me pay but then do you know you are giving me pressure?? So she say help you pay you don't know how to gan en.

If i'm not good i can use this money to go tour so i shoot her back excuse me your office there the company that time give you'll a trip to thailand and i only sit aeroplane one time and that was when?? I was that time primary 5 and thats my 1st and last trip!!! Since when you got bring me go trip?? OK fine!!! VEry thanks to you!!! If i am not grateful to you what for i spend $50+ to buy you birdnest?? And that money is my lunch money i didn't eat at all!!! I save those money for my bank and those $50+ means alot to me!!!

So yun juan say aiya don't angry and don't quarrel le lahz so i say since when i want to she is the one who start 1st. So she say actually she is very good liaoz lorz ok i appreciate but she keeps those receipts and everything can you imagine how i feel?? And some more she is my mother .....

So she say aiya don't angry le lahz.... so i say forget it.......
and i tell her you give me liang cha lahz and she know what i mean so my mum give me.....
DOTS~~~~~~~~~~~ ok i drink!!!

16 february 2009

2009-02-18T22:21:00.000-08:00

Today early in the morning 8.00+ that mother of mine starts to nag at me cause i can study mdis and she insist i must pass cause of the course fees is very expensive. Ok ok i know but does she know she's giving my pressure and stress?? As you know i won't have too much confidence in everythings i do. And she say and make sure you return me the money!! That sum is not only few $100 only is $3000 + can you imagine how much is't?? And you better do housework and everything!!

Well i feel like shouting her back back before i shout back i told myself to bear!! "REN"!! then she keep pinching me i really can't stand her!! Then how i hope she faster go to work!!! Then at the evening my sister also say this sentence now there's two big rocks on my head and i'm starting to have headaches!! I tell my sister can you please don't put a rock on my head!! Today mother just tell me this sentence so she ask mother.

And my mother tell her cause she got no confidence!! Exist she say this i got confidence!! Is not ok!! Infact she's making me more no confidence!!! Stress omg i was wondering how am i gonna survive during those school days!!! Arhz!!!!

LIfe.....

2009-01-04T23:13:00.000-08:00

lalalala~~~hahaz tommorow i will be meeting him hahaz xD do you know those songs i put on my blog or friendster is meaning from my heart?? Hahaz never mind anyway that day 31st i went out with yun juan we eat mof ministry of food. The food was expensive but she got treat me. We play those catch softoys machines for short cut they call kiap kiap. hahaz sounds funny right??

I spend about $10+ i guess haiz. Didn't manage to catch one haiz wasted. Then daniel actually wanted to say daniel de but scared later thigs go worst so i didn't say him. Then we walk and walk yun juan say me why you so quiet?? So i say got mehz?? But actually i was thinking something. And find that we got less topic le lehz......hope we still can be that close like last time worz.

Well cause they like very close and l was like a bulb you know what i mean?? Thats why i very sianz didn't talk. Then after that we went to toilet then go sasa for shopping. She bought something i didn't as i was broke....dots right?? Then we went to tcc to eat cheese cake then she and daniel were talking about drinking voca. So she ask me do i drink voca?? And i say didn't for me drink beer and wine ok.

So she say next time we go clubbing one?? So i say i anything but daniel don't like her to go. But if daniel got go with her ok incase she is drunk she still got him but i don't have....... :'( sad arhz!!!!!!!! x'O i was wondering will he be my future bf?? Cause alot of times is qiao he sorry i don't know how to spell in english.

But i hope he will know i will be there for him. Haiz too bad he treat me as sister. Hope he will know i am willing to help him forget her. But guess he won't de bahz. Never mind. And i'm willing to change for him. You know i envy cassiie and yun juan and hongmei cause they already found their prince. Hmm but will send them this sentence

" Since you have found your true love which is your prince you must treasure it. :) "

Today

2008-12-21T22:49:00.000-08:00

Today hongmei they all going to meet Jane and serene. But i'm not going cause of her........cause that time watch movie call twlight with hongmei and her friend. Then she say 22 they going out so i say who cause she ask me go along.

When hongmei tell her friend our problems her friend say i nothing wrong when i hear this i was shock finally another person understand me. The 1st person who understand me is my bro now another person great and of cause got other friends side me lahz.

Then she say jane and serene. So i say don't think first she say hahaz i talk with serene let u two talk hahaz see can quiet for how long. xD Then i say like that de hua i don't go le. Cause later got problem again. Then she say you two horz very stubborn lehz haiz nothing to say......then i say whatever......

Today they gonna meet. Haiz don't know lahz i go is because i give hongmei face i don't want to go is because don't want to see somebody de face.......which is her lahz obviously........i mean no harm is just don't want to spoil my mood only. haiz don't know lahz...............

@ll @bout yesterday

2008-12-21T20:51:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went to my ah gong house for dinner and baby came oh his name is zheng kai if i'm not wrong. Then wen xuan play with our third aunty hide and seek hahaz i make fun of her don't let her find our aunty xD ok i know i bad but relax is just for fun :)

Then we went to eat fruits which is grape. Yesterday my jiu mu cook all my favourite food man!!! Wa!!!!! Shiok man so delicious yum yum :) l really love her cooking hahaz. Ok ok then after that we play with wen xuan and while my san jiu mu and san jiu was having their dinner my mum help them to feed zheng kai.

He drink little milk. Then when he finish drinking suddenly he split out some of the milk. Is because he is burping. Then my mum help to pat his back then he can burp. And he split out alot. Then finish burping they put him on the sofa to let us play with him. He is so cute :) Then he tired le he cry so loud which is he is throwing temper le :(

Ok but before they go home we eat the tang yuan together. After finish the tang yuan they go home le. After that clement ask me to play reversi with him. Last time l am good at this game but now not good le :( then after that he win me sad arhz but never mind just a game mahz.

After my third aunt husband at downstair waiting for us in his car then when we go down my mum say now what time liaoz still go out my aunt also say me then i say my mum you don't expect me to say i can't go le right some more they wait for me so long liaoz later what will people think and feel??

Then my aunt ask her husband to drop us at the mrt station my mum also. After they drop us my mum keep saying me but i say l go out late before what that time l. also reach home at 1+ or 12 also. Then i ask her to take bus home. Then l go take train le. When l reach bishan l go find them at mac.

Then chuan kai angry and halfway keep smiling then i sense somethng is fishy going on. They insist want me to eat mega macspicy. Then after that i say wa i just now eat alot of things lehz......then he insist me to eat mega macspicy. Then don't know why they keep smiling then i pretend to be angry and that time really feel like vomiting.

Then when she see me abit angry she ask me promise her not to be angry then i say i know is a playing prank right. Then she say no just promise me not to be angry then i say ok. Then she say actually is i ask him to act angry de. Then i act angry and want to go. Then she say o ok lahz sorry lahz cause like that then more fun mahz. Then we ask her go order food

l say i want to eat macnugget set. Then she go order hahaz after that we chat until dam funny chat alot of things. Then chat until halfway we talk about the indian girl who replace me she get caught by the bhg manager for using the hp. She lucky didn't get sack. Then they say she funny i'm cool then i say oh~ got someone replace me le lorz in u'll de pai hang bang i become last le sad arhz!!!! In joke only not serious. Then they say where got??

Then talk halfway she say about the girl what de i forget le sorry.......then suddenly she say jealous of her i say where got!!!! Then she say ok ok sorry say wrongly sister. The 3 of us will be forever best friends and partner. 3 of study at ang mo kio work at bishan and alot. And i'm 18 chuan kai is 17 mei sin is the youngest 16.

Then is time to go home le we went to take bus with chuan kai and meisin but in the end no bus so we take cab. Then we send chuan kai home 1st cause his house is at seng kang. Then the cab inside got tv but only got advertisement no shows so boring :( then his hand very itchy keep touching those buttons.... xD then i say wa you very itchy hand lehz then he keep laughing.

Then he reach le we say bye to him then uncle thought we get down together when we say next two place at amk then he shock hahaz pai sehz lahz uncle then next is mine. Then she ask me should she study sec 5 i pursude her go study cause is for her own good. Then when i reach my blk le the cab fee 20+ omg!!!! She gonna get broke soon. Then i say thanks for the treat. and more ok thats all for yesterday.

Happy.

2008-12-15T23:12:00.000-08:00

WOW yesterday is my 4th working day. Starting feel like quiting but after that won't le cause is fun xD being a promoter can get to know alot of friends. Like cheryl and mei xin yesterday got a new guy come call chuang kai. Cheryl and chuang kai dam quiet. Everytime l have to talk to them 1st then they will chat dots~ hahaz xD

Can play toy car and gun hahaz xD But i'm glad to meet those 3 friends. But among the 4 of us i'm the eldest =( sounds like l'm old sad arhz!!!!!!!!!!! Today hongmei ask me 22 want to go out with serene and Jane then i was considering and i think don't want bahz some more that day don't know whether got work anot.

Then she thought i'm still angry and she say serene ask jane to ask me go then hongmei tell me that she didn't say don't want she say ask hongmei tell me infact so obvious is like she don't want me to go. And like whats the point if i go when they are so close am i right?? Suan le never mind.

Hahaz that day went to watch bolt with yun juan cause she is sad so l ask her want to watch movie?? So lolz watch le good man so funny laugh until my stomach pain :( hahaz xD

@bt her??

2008-12-04T04:47:00.000-08:00

Well should l patch back with her?? No not yet i guess.....cause i don't find that is the time to be back together yet.....when many people ask me about our situation i was like don't feel like answering the question......

But i still got to answer if not is very rude and i don't have the habit of turning down peoples offer. Haiz hope no one will ask me again. And i think this time i won't patch with her that fast. I think it will take about 2 to 3 months or more than that. Or maybe forever who knows??

My bro kit also think that not worth to patch back with her my other friends also think like this......well don't know. Btw erm i'm talking about friendship not les!!!! Hope you all don't mistaken!!!!

Yesterday

2008-12-03T23:53:00.000-08:00

Yesterday l went out with my cousin Jueli we went to plaza singapura to look for clothes for attending my sis rom. We went to have our lunch at long john sliver. After our lunch we start to look for clothes.

Then she say want to go top shop?? But we find alot of times don't have you know why?? Cause she see wrongly hahaz. xD then we walk l only buy a sleeveless jacket from 77th street an l haven buy clothes!!

Haiz then we can't find the things we want we went to compass point. Then walk halfway got Starbucks sample l took 1 cup hahaz delicious man!!! She also want to try ok so we share. Then after throwing away l saw someone familiar.

But she saw me she ignore me but l confirm is one of my friend then l was wondering did l see wrong?? Then we continue to shop still can't find =( then we went to metro and kiddy palace to look for the latest monopoly. It cost $70!!! Then didn't buy le cause scared later buy le no one play =(

Then is time for her to go home le l can't find someone to shop!! Then l ask kit keong man his my savivor!!!!!!!!!!!! Always my savivor!!!!!!!! Whenever l need him he will always be there for me thnkz man =) So after that l took the bus 86 all the way to amk hub and he reach le guess he wait dam long le bahz pai sehz worz =( find that we are really almost the same =)

How to say lehz?? Aiya means got fate jiu correct le =) he say luckily he saw his hp if not he don't know i got msg him then he will go back home le. I was wondering is this call a coinsidence?? Guess so bahz [ Xinyu don't think so much!!! Doesn't mean a guy treat u like this means he like u!!!! ] Hmm but was wondering will it be him?? Who knows??

Hehez l find that l'm getting to understand him more le well thats a good thing is't?? =) Yesterday we went to walk and eat dinner at mac hahaz xD he say if he alone he won't eat at mac with frens then he will eat at mac. Hmm well most of the things he will help me along like including me and jane situation. He also find that she is not worth to be with. Cause she only think for herself and he say this type of person is selfish but most of the people is selfish =)

Hahaz yesterday our hand accidently touch awhile get happy xD then he ask me did l electric u?? So l say nope =) he ask want me electric u?? So l say don't want!!!! So l say want to electric me not so easy xD hahaz xD

Haiz sometimes l was wondering am l selfish that l didn't think for him =( don't know l just want to unerstand him more seems like wish is being granted =) if we have a chance to be together l hope it will be forever =)

@ll @bout 14 nov my birthday

2008-11-16T21:00:00.000-08:00

Last friday 14 nov which is my birthday on the afternoon went out with my mother we went to look for lawyer cause she want to divorce with my father while to me he is a bastard even though it sounds rude when you have a father like mine you won't feel that l am rude.

After we reach the lawyer office we chat with the lawyer while discussing halfway my mother suddenly cried l want to offer tissue but l didn't cause l am shy to do infront of outsiders. After my mum stop crying she keep telling the lawyer how that bastard treat us and even his mother too!!!! l really pity my mother she got this type of husband and mother in law wth!!!!

l will not let them off!!!! Even though l can't do anything but l believe they will get their retribution. What you do is what you get!!!! If that bastard dare to do anything to us we will call the police and ask for ppo!!! Ok get back to the topic.....you know what did my mum give me?? Instead of present she give me a red packet $100 cause i want to borrow $60 from her thhen she say this red packet is for you. You want to treat your friends meals then treat do anything you want

But then is like no difference lorz is like my life expenses that means what i want to buy i can't buy.....then she say don't want then give me back so l give back and i tell my friends the celebration cancel le then my friend ask why so i explain then my mum say you already want to treat your friends now you say don't want they sure angry and don't like de horz!!!

Then fine..........so she bought me another necklace cost $10 l guess. So after that l feel very tired and angry and sad cause what l want is a psp light. But she won't buy so we went home and she ask me want to go novena buy a cake?? So l say anything so we went to look for the cake shop call angie the choice. After searching finally we found the shop.

Then my mother and l go home but she went to sheng siong to buy thing she ask me go back first. So l went back and wash my leg and take a nap first but suddenly my cousin come and return my ds. After that she sit awhile and we chit chat and guess who come my house?? Haha is my long years friend which is marilyn hahaz xD and she give me 3 things after she reach my house.

We chat quite long then is time for my cousin to go home then is time to go and meet yun juan but marilyn want to tie her hair first and she very funny she keep tying none stop. xD Then my friend call me and ask me where am l so l say on the way to J8 le then she say don't bluff l know you still at home lorz hahaz she so smart then l say really then she say ok lahz hahaz xD

She say in a joking way. After we reach there she still at arcade -_-''' hahaz xD then she come down we meet each other already she give me my present she bought me a sunflower. Then she say touching right?? See l so good only l give you flowers. Then l tell marilyn nah l give you then yun juan say hey don't want then give me back then i say where can like that de of cause i want man!!!

Hahaz ok time for dinner we went to cafe cartel to eat l order a plate of spaghetti
marilyn order a plate of macoroni and yun juan and her bf daniel order roast chicken l guess hahaz xD then i eat quite slow cause very dry and i need to drink alot of water then daniel pay by credit card gt discount then when i give them the money they say don't need cause they know i no money and l feel very pai sehz.

Already say l treat is they treat me so ma lu haiz.....indeed true friends marilyn also haiz sorry guys.....then l ask them want to go arcade?? Then yun juan say don't want and she ask me you want to play arhz?? So l say yapp then we went to the arcade and we play the toy catcher we can't catch and i spent $25 on it didn't catch 1 also so sad =( and i nearly catch it alot of times so me and marilyn went to play other machines like the shooting game time chris 4 and is fun.

Then we after finishing playing we play with the basketball game and we didn't hit the target. So after that we went to play the mario racing game and is fun!!! l play 2 times and i won the 1st!!! Then while l am still racing yun juan suddenly tell me she need to go le so l say ok bye. Then play till finish is time to go home and plan to take train but we must get back home early so we take cab we wait so long.

But the uncle attitude very bad then turn wrong also didn't charge less 10cents. Then when we reach home hahaz guess what!!!!! Time to eat cake!!!!!!! Marilyn bought me a chocolate cake my mother bought me an ice cream cake yahoo!!!!! Total we have two cakes!!!!!!!!!! So l call my cousins and ask her whether want to eat cake so they say ok.

Ok when everybody arrive my mum prepare everything already she ok birthday girl come!!!! Then marilyn use her hp take video so l say hi l am todays host hahahaz so everybody laugh xD then time for birthday song everybody sing together already l wish for 3 wishes my 1st wish is i wish everybody healthy 2nd is my mother forever beautiful and live long 3rd l can't tell hehe xD

Then we halfway eat halfway chat. After finish eating my mum ask whether we still want to eat then we still have the choco cake and each of us must eat xD so they did then yulin still want the ice cream cake. Then finish eating l say lets play uno so they say ok. Then while playing halfway we chat and we chat quite long about 1 o'clock or 12+ like that hahaz xD

Then after that they go home yeah!! l am quite happy man 1st time birthday got cake and some more is my 18th birthday!!! l won't forget about this day maybe to all of you is nothing but if your life is like mine you will feel it's different. Ok end of story.

......

2008-11-07T23:35:00.000-08:00

Well didn't plan to patch back with her le cause she is always the one who hurt my feeling as a friend. Maybe you guys were right i should have listen to you guys. You all keep telling me she is just using me and didn't respect me as a friend i should have listen.

It's all over between me and her........now what i need is time to forget about her. Just treat her as a normal friend can le i guess..........since she is so cruel......you know at her friendster profile write if you are nice so do i but she's not.......

Do you know among all my friends she give me the most problem is all over...........l am so dissapointed with her treat her as a sister but to her she treat me like transparent like that..... now adays i just feel like walking outside during the night.....

Is like is very comfortable to me when walking in the night at my hse downstair.....or sit in the playground like you are sitting on a high tower....this is how i do when i am sad or stress to make myself happy and relax abit....

Days for me is like blues..........only blues only blues hao ji muo......this sentence came from one of the chinese song........most of my friends ask me to have a chat with her but not i don't dare is because i don't want to hurt her feelings then my bro say then she didn't hurt your feelings mehz??

I really don't know should l have a chat with her anot......haiz let things be natural bahz......since she want to be so cruel let her be bahz i was wondering on my birthday should l invite her anot.....

Is all over.....

2008-11-07T05:20:00.000-08:00

Today went out with yun juan and her stead. Then we have our dinner at mos burger. Then halfway eat she ask me about Jane so l say like that lorz.......and she really block me l cannot go her blog tag....... after that yun juan keep saying she really don't like Jane well glad at least she understand my feelings.....

Then we say next year Jan we go mdis there to apply for June intake so l say ok. Then after eating we go arcade play awhile and it makes me feel abit happy. After playing shop awhile then go home cause she is tired.

But l take bus and when it reach my hse bus stop l don't feel like going home l feel like walking awhile........but is like no where to go so no choice got to go home........after reaching home that father of mine is at home and he is waiting for my mother cause he insist the door to be open.....then l close it but he say don't close

So after l close he go open again!!! But one thing very funny about yun juan bf is he really understand her alot and keep telling me about her what she like and what she tell me means what what what hahaz xD glad l still got a best friend to make me happy =')

Well i think me and her our friendship ends here bahz............ ='(

About e worst day l cry because of friendship problem....

2008-11-06T21:29:00.000-08:00

Yesterday l went out with kit my brother to vivo city to apply for job at toysrus after applying we went to play with some of the toys and is like two mature people still playing with toys. Then we went to daiso to shop.

After shopping at daiso we went to the pet safari to look at those puppys and hamsters and how they groom the puppys. Those puppys are so adorable they play with their towels by themself. One of the dog chihuahua keep shivering l don't know why. Well maybe is because he is cold.

After finishing looking my eye suddenly itchy and l keep rubbing my eye then he ask me why you keep rubbing your eye?? Is't your eye itchy?? Then he give me eye drops =) Then after sitting awhile we start to walk again. We went to the zinc shop to look at some of the bags.

After finish looking at the bag we went to have our dinner after l read the msg Jane send me cause the 1st msg l send ls like y msg you didn't reply?? Then she say sorry for the late reply recently busy. Then l say when you go for the interview you think your friends can accompany you?? Then she say what you want now?? l already didn't ask you to accompany me le right?? You keep repeating the same thing you not tired arhz??

So l say l'm just telling you only right!!! l didn't plan to continue talking about it and how do l know whether are you still angry about the thing right!! And l didn't plan to quarrel with you tag you also never reply back!! So she say why should l reply all tags?? You can ask uncle patrick I don't reply all his tag too!!! And whatever you write on your blog is none of my buisness. And same goes to you!!

After finish eating when l saw this message l was like totally very sad about it and halfway angry. Then this time l can't control my tears and he know l am crying so he say don't tell me this is dust fly in your eyes. Then l say nothing never mind =') but actually my face was like this ='( -._-.

Then he give me his tissue paper. And he say hmm some friends is worth to treat them good then you treat them good but if some friends you treat them good but they don't even treat you as a friend and they don't know how to treasure you then whats the point of treating them so good?? Then most of my friends say from now onwards don't treat her that good le.

Then my mum also say from now onwards just treat her as normal friend jiu can le. If is true friends they won't force you. Haiz thanks for those friends of mine. I'm glad i still have you all and when you all say doesn't mean you must follow her de mahz you still got other friends so i say my friend less lehz.....then they say l not your friend arhz!!! Hahaz xD =') glad still got you all.

After finish eating the ice cream actually he need to go back early de but in the end end up accompany me sorry very sorry casue of me you lack of sleep... and yesterday and buy me a watch as my birthday present =') those who remember my birthday l won't forget them de l love you guys =') After l reach home l chat with my best buddy best pal only she and other of the friends l mention she and my brother and yun juan is the best!!!

After finish chatting we gtg to bed le but l can't fall asleep end up sleeping at 3.....and today cannot wake up

FED UP!!!!

2008-11-05T21:52:00.001-08:00

ALRIGHT I HAD ENOUGH OF IT!!!! l am now very fed up with someone!!! Whats the point of explaning too much when he or she don't want to listen!!! Is like another person MlA!!! Message or ask question also won't reply!!!! Treat me like transparent like that!!!!

If l can accompany of course l can accompany right!!! But the thing is my mother and my sister object me to study that course then what can l do??!!!! Can't you understand my situation??!!!! l keep changing cause l can't make up my mine!!!!

l buy the specs is also to accompany you to wear not only l want to wear!!!!! When you got nobody you come to me when you got your friends you kick me to a side!!! lf l treat you like transparent do you like it??!!!!!! ARHZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whats the point about thinking for you???? Whats the point of treating you so good!!!

l am really very angry now!!!! So fed up!!!!! FINE TO YOU I AM LIKE TRANSPARENT RIGHT!!!! NEXT TIME YOU GOT NO ONE TO LOOK FOR DON'T COME TO ME!!!! You only think for yourself!!!!!